Captain Who?!?!

Sino nga ba si Kapitan Sino?

Kapitan ano??!!

Mali! Kapitan Sino!!

Oh eh sino nga si Kapitan Watever?!?!

...hindi siya isang malaking joke,pero ang buhay niya parang isang malaking joke lang ang lahat. Siya ang bida na fictional character sa pang-7 libro ni bob Ong, na tulad ng buhay mo at buhay ko, posibleng wala ring happy ending. Posibleng meron, but one thing is for sure, tulad ng buhay niya, malamang din sa mga oras na to, jino-joke ka lang ng fate mo.

Oh eh sino nga si Kapitan Chorva???

Naintriga ako nung sabihin sa'kin ng pamangkin ko ang bagong book na toh. It's about a super hero na may usual discovery ng super power ability and the story goes on. So what makes it unsual compared sa biography ni Superman, Batman, Spiderman at Bioman??
Si Kapitan Sino, may side-kick na walang kwenta pero the best. The besk kasi simple lang sing tao; malakas mang-asar, mahilig makipag phone-pal,nagsasabi lagi ng totoo kahit nakakayamot na, at sumusuporta sa kaibigan hanggang kulungan!
Ang leading lady ni Kapitan Sino, hindi yung super sexy at damsel in distress ang drama, d tulad ng mga ibang leading lady ng mga super hero jan. Siguro ang masaklap din dun, hindi man lang nia na-kiss yung girl nia kahit sa cheeks man lang!
Hindi ulila sa magulang si Kapitan Sino, hindi inabuso ng kamag-anak, hindi sumikat kahit iligtas pa niya ang buong Pelaez, at siya lang ang super hero na ibinintang ang pagkamatay ng kapitbahay dahil sa lung cancer.
Mukha siyang tanga sa costume niya pero ok lang.
Feeling ko wala siang abs, hindi siya drop dead gorgeous kasi nga isa siyang malaking tanga sa costume/disguise niya! Pero ok lang sa kanya!! cute noh?!
Masasabi kong makulet siya, mabait ng kaibigan, masipag, mahal ang trabaho niya, mapagmahal at mabait na anak, at higit sa lahatresposableng mamamayan! reactive masyado...OA minsan, pero nagampanan niya ang papel niya sa lipunan ayon sa kanyang kakayahan.

EH SINO NGA SI KAPITAN SINO?!?!

Siya ay pwedeng ikaw, ako o yung mukhang loser/tanga/nerd/sa-friendster-lang-may-friends na katabi mo! Sinasalamin niya ang mga twenty somthing na tao na hinaharap ang quarterlife crisis, teenager na feeling niya kaya niyang gawin ang lahat, isang idealist na akala niya mababago niya ang mundo; nalulungkot, tumatawa, naiinlove, nagiging masaya, nadidisappoint, kwela, frustrated, makata, nasasaktan at ang hangad lang ay kabutihan para sa mga taong-bayan.
Tulad natin, si Kapitan Sino ay may love-hate relationship sa life; iisa lang ang kakahantungan...super hero siya hindi immortal.


Ganyan ang pagkakakilala ko kay Kapitan Sino...

La Mode

One of the changes i'm looking forward this year is my ultimate make-over!

Through these years i keep on sticking to my (oh so beloved) chucks, jeans ans shirt outfit., and now, i just figured out that i have to explore more when it comes to fashin and be a lil' adventurous when it comes to dressing up. Well, it doesn't really mean i have to wear something really wacky outfit, i just have to get used in wearing dresses, corporate attires and high heeled shoes that will somehow bring out the sassy yet sofisticated (naks!) part of me at the same time feeling comfortable on what i'm wearing.

I know this is going to be something and i'm pretty excited about it. I really don't care right now what some people will say about the changes i'll make for myself, but i have to listen though and somehow evaluate myself too...maybe what i'm wearing for the day might be tooo flashy or something.hehehe

I know this is the time i'll find Cosmopolitan and Elle mag will be really a big help for me!Ü

A week after...

It's been a week since we all gave tears and said goodbyes in daddy-lolo's burial.

Yes...it's our final goodbye to him and so many, i miss you, i love you and multitudes of thank yous' where he can no longer hear. It's heartbreaking that one have to leave before people realize his value and say the words we're all afraid or missed to say.

It may be too late but at the end, we all get to have the chance to see him with our Father and finally not just say how much he's loved but give him hugs and kisses we could've given to him while he's with us.

Continuous prayer for our love one....

Death, tears and home made cookies

Last week was the tragic moment for our family when my daddy-lolo finally gave up and left us. He fought the battle and suffered enough to be forgiven from all his shortcomings and mistakes he have caused us, whether he mean it or not.
It's something i can't accept after making a deal with him that he can make it, that we will fight together and amidst my busy schedule, still see to it he's being taken care of. When he had his last breath, something just stabbed me in my chest, made me still and quiet...it sucks because it's a feeling i've been avoiding for a long time...sadness and tears. Another man in my life left again....

It's a struggle for me to work but it's more painful for me to just stay home and grieve about everything. I tried to keep myself busy and somehow it's a placebo from all the things i'm keeping myself from. Friends and officemates shared their hugs and some even tried their best to make me laugh...wich i believe a job well done. Yet there are moments i see myself staring at nowhere, thinking of the things i should've done and what are the things we had further done to save his valuable life. Now..everything is too late...he left with tears in his eyes.

Days had pass and i realized that they are right, I should be more happy for him because he's back in our Creator's arms. He no longer have to suffer from death-defying suction, no more needles on his hands, free from diapers and oxygen tank will no longer make him breath easier because wherever he is right now, i bet the air there is more fresher.

Relatives and friends gather on his wake to tell more stories about him. Rumors goes around among the family, different versions of one single event, cries from my dadi-lolo's wife, kids and sisters and a moment for us to see our long lost relatives. From tears to smiles, and i know he'll be delighted when he see all of us gathering and holding each other's hands as we recall all the funny and nice things (and even those not so nice), and even his ka-pilyohan.

Acceptance makes everything easier for us. Trust, that right now his soul is at peace and he's life is much better for him, and a bag of home made cookies to complete it all!

I got this from Drei..

I am the ocean -- that never gets tired of coming back to the shore, that is you..
I am the voice you don't hear -- that continues to believe and fight for you..
I am a soul forgotten -- that weeps for every moment spent without you..
I am the star -- that chooses to shine only for you..
I am the song you don't listen with the ear of your heart..
I am the air -- that you unconsciously breath..
I am the blanket -- that covers you, protects you from this cold life..
I am the cigarette stick -- that you refuse to have,...
I am the phone -- that waits to hear your voice...
I am the rain -- that continues to fall for you....

can't find the right words...

Another friend moved on and I feel proud of her because she's brave enough to leave her comfort zone. On the other hand, I feel sad. Sad because I'll no longer see her every day.

Officially missing her…my boss, my friend, my sister and just turned out my mommy as well…all in one…

She's happy now and that's what matters the most...

Monkey Junky!!Ü

"She's good and I really like her because she's a great teacher; she's 24 years old though and that's the problem..."

I heard that from my customer, while she's talking to someone, on the time I'm thinking really hard why I have to leave my work and find a job where I can put my heart on it. I'm aging and that makes me hopeless to continue on my dreams, I'm having this fear that my dreams might age as well and nothing can accept me, even the industry I want to be in. I don't expect any help from anybody, I'm used to it. I'm used in doing things by my own, if there are some who help me I know God send them over to save my ass, but that doesn't happened all the time, even in the time you badly need it.
At my age right now, I don't know what else I can do except from what I'm doing right now. THAT SUCKS!

I guess few signs of aging are countless fears, tons of responsibilities, all type of stress and pressures, numerous wants and needs and desperate days, doctors or over the counter meds that can't help me recover and at least make me feel beautiful on the ugliest moment in my life. I think the cure is within me...thinking positive i guess is one of the key.

Alright, so what's fun with aging? What is that thing that makes me feel and say it's ok? maybe there are some...

OK...

One thing i really love about getting old is i get to learn so many things in life. Another thing is i have to, if not required, to think mature and act one. Like what my Tita told me, growing old can really be annoying, but it's hell fun specially if you're learning!

Thing is, maturity doesn't come with age...so is respect, not all the time. I think maturity comes with learning from all the hardships in life and respect is something that's being earned.

I just hope every person realize the value of learning than aging...