After a few weeks, i'm back. There are some things in my mind that just stagnate and i let it be that way...my bad.
What i feel right now is somehow annoying and it's everything of anything!
I dont want my job but i have no choice but to keep it; even my reasons for staying aren't enough to keep me still making me think of other more reasons to stay, funny is i never run out of it and even the most nonsense one mark a point for me...pathetic....
Pathetic and i know i am but i don't mind at all. Even the most luckiest person in world find his or herself pathetic at one point of his or her life. It makes me more human.
What makes me more of a human are the happiness and endless pain. It's where i get to learn more things; so who says after earning a degree, a masters or the highest recognition of learning, someone really has to stop from learning. If one does, that's the most nastiest thing ever!
It's nasty when employees tend to kiss their employers' ass thinking they will be promoted without doing less and more ass kissing. Who ever thought of that, inventented that or came up with that, definetely has nothing in his life right now but riches that can be taken away from him in a snap...hello!!! GOD DO EXIST!!
What made me say that God exist? If you believe that someone out there made that computer you're using right now, then think who made you're heart that's beating right now...who made you're parent's heart and your parent's parent's heart?
Heart could be the most sensitive part of once body. Do i really need to be scientific here?? i mean, even, "the rock" once had a broken heart and made him cry.
Cry...cry...that's all left for me to do at the end of every day...hais.
