Me and my friends celebrated 3years of our friendship at Greenbelt watching 2012, something that we haven't done before.
2012 is not your typical film or your movie extraordinaire. It's a reality check that everything does come to an end, even to our planet. It shows that till the end, it's still a matter of "survival of the fittest", doesnt matter if you're rich or poor, powerful or weak, kind or mean...it's really human instinct to survive.
It's a movie that shows how human get to realize how valuable life is and how they want to make most if the time doing what they could've done a long time; some were given a chance to do what they long to do, yet some just have to accept that they have done their part, only too late.
It reveals the other face of human civilization, how to really fight to survive, the reason why we need to survive and and learning how not be inhumane even though we are all facing human crisis. It shows the ugly truth that it's human instinct to be greedy to survive and that even a billion euro is not the key to live as some expect it to be.
It shows mother nature's revenge and God giving human a lesson that no one learned from. What actually scary is, it could happen, and sooner or later it will happen. Remember how we all thought that 9/11 bombing only happened in movies?
One continent in the world may survive, all human heritage will be lost, our family will not be able to survive, all religions in the world will be wiped out and racisim will be the last thing to think of...it's like Noah's life in the 20th century! Only the one who believes will make it.
It has been part of our history, and history repeats itself....it may happen today...next year...or at 2012.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Something's missing...
I feel so incomplete today and i don't have the energy to work and complete my task.
I wasn't able to bring my planner with me, just when i'm on the mood of updating what i've done and what I should be doing. I miss checking on events that i've been and places that i'm planning to go on a specific dat...which happened to end as a plan since my boss didn't really allow us to take as many leaves as we want in a month.
I don't even feel like working today! 5 more evals and some of my agents don't have a recording, we all feel tired (and used), we don't see the value of producing more evals and it seems so unjust for me to act like a hero just to let our client think that "hey these folks are great...BUT...". I'm this close of giving up!!
One thing i remember that i miss is my wrist watch! It's broken now and I can't buy another one because..well...i have to wait till payday. I feel like naked for 3 days now!!! I'm thinking of not buying a wrist watch yet..coz i wanted to buy a new phone.
Waaaah! i want so many things and I'm still a mess!!
BTW...it's day 2!!Ü
I wasn't able to bring my planner with me, just when i'm on the mood of updating what i've done and what I should be doing. I miss checking on events that i've been and places that i'm planning to go on a specific dat...which happened to end as a plan since my boss didn't really allow us to take as many leaves as we want in a month.
I don't even feel like working today! 5 more evals and some of my agents don't have a recording, we all feel tired (and used), we don't see the value of producing more evals and it seems so unjust for me to act like a hero just to let our client think that "hey these folks are great...BUT...". I'm this close of giving up!!
One thing i remember that i miss is my wrist watch! It's broken now and I can't buy another one because..well...i have to wait till payday. I feel like naked for 3 days now!!! I'm thinking of not buying a wrist watch yet..coz i wanted to buy a new phone.
Waaaah! i want so many things and I'm still a mess!!
BTW...it's day 2!!Ü
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Who let the dawg out?!? Ü
I miss this!!! I miss blogging!!! it even take some time for me to realize that i'm no longer updating even my daily planner. I'm stuck on providing feedback which I didn't know if they get to read it...well some does and i truely love them for that!!
yes, I've been busy...I've been busy minding other people's call and busy producing evaluations every single day..same old task...just what i expect it to be.
I started to like what i'm doing, seriously, it doesn't bore me to death after 2 months of learning the processes. I'm starting to set my self aside from the cruel, crazy world of operations and fill my mind clutter free from all the metrics to meet that only favors those whom THEY want to pass.
I'm starting to embrace this world that i'm in right now. The world not far from where i turn my back to, the world where being cruel is the rule and the game is pretty fierce.
I think you just have to let go of the past, learn today and move on for a better tomorrow...
yes, I've been busy...I've been busy minding other people's call and busy producing evaluations every single day..same old task...just what i expect it to be.
I started to like what i'm doing, seriously, it doesn't bore me to death after 2 months of learning the processes. I'm starting to set my self aside from the cruel, crazy world of operations and fill my mind clutter free from all the metrics to meet that only favors those whom THEY want to pass.
I'm starting to embrace this world that i'm in right now. The world not far from where i turn my back to, the world where being cruel is the rule and the game is pretty fierce.
I think you just have to let go of the past, learn today and move on for a better tomorrow...
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Mushiness on a rainy day...
There were lots of times where we always wanted someone to love us back the way we love them. Truth is it never really happened. We exert effort, waste time waiting for them to take us seriously, and lose our mind only find it’s not worth everything. There were times, we thought we already have what we wanted and badly needed, only to find, that person still can’t fill the empty half of us. We tend to ruin something beautifully created by a happy couple thinking that they already found happiness together and it’s not really that bad to be the third character on their love story. We take the risk of telling someone what we feel, without thinking what the consequences are and sometimes we even lose what we wish to have forever. We risk losing self respect to please the one we love. We forgot the real meaning of "sorry", sacrifice, pride, fidelity, selflessness and love. We take the forbidden risk just to be loved.
What’s the whole point on this? It’s a reality check, that before we long for someone to love us back, we have to love ourselves first. This might be too cliché or so passé but that’s the only time where nothing will be gone to waste. They can hurt us, leave us crying and so helpless, but they can’t take away the things we have learned, even our self respect. When we find love within us, we can easily forgive ourselves from making all the mess we made, we don’t blame others or even ourselves when we failed and we accept that all the risk that we take is all worth it. It would be easy to get back love in return, even if it’s not from someone we thought would love us back. We don’t give way for people to abuse us because we know we deserve better than to suffer and live behind ones lies. No matter how hard they try to pull us down, we have this very courageous way of getting back on our feet, dust ourselves off and move on and take the risk to love again with all the lessons we learned on our side. We get sad but we don’t get depressed, simply because we know we’re better of than hiding inside a dark room and live in misery. That’s when we realize how wonderful life is and how blessed we are with having our family to give us unconditional love and friends who’s always there to get us back to reality and never fail to make our lives full of fun.
We all deserve to have someone we love and will love us back but we don’t live in a life full of fantasy. One may be lucky enough to find their other half, but it’s not pure luck at all, they found their true one love because they learned to appreciate themselves first. We have to start with ourselves and that’s the only risk where we can surely win.
What’s the whole point on this? It’s a reality check, that before we long for someone to love us back, we have to love ourselves first. This might be too cliché or so passé but that’s the only time where nothing will be gone to waste. They can hurt us, leave us crying and so helpless, but they can’t take away the things we have learned, even our self respect. When we find love within us, we can easily forgive ourselves from making all the mess we made, we don’t blame others or even ourselves when we failed and we accept that all the risk that we take is all worth it. It would be easy to get back love in return, even if it’s not from someone we thought would love us back. We don’t give way for people to abuse us because we know we deserve better than to suffer and live behind ones lies. No matter how hard they try to pull us down, we have this very courageous way of getting back on our feet, dust ourselves off and move on and take the risk to love again with all the lessons we learned on our side. We get sad but we don’t get depressed, simply because we know we’re better of than hiding inside a dark room and live in misery. That’s when we realize how wonderful life is and how blessed we are with having our family to give us unconditional love and friends who’s always there to get us back to reality and never fail to make our lives full of fun.
We all deserve to have someone we love and will love us back but we don’t live in a life full of fantasy. One may be lucky enough to find their other half, but it’s not pure luck at all, they found their true one love because they learned to appreciate themselves first. We have to start with ourselves and that’s the only risk where we can surely win.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
LSS
*An old song just struck me and made me think of some things i know i should not even waste a second thinking of.
Just My Imagination
Verse 1- Gwyneth Paltrow
Each day through my windowI watch him as he passes by
I say to myselfI'm so lucky he's so fly
To have a boy like himis truly a dream come true
Out of all the girlies in the world he belongs to you
Chorus
But it was just my imagination
Runnin away with me
tell you it was just my imagination
running away with me
Verse 2-Babyface
Soon we'll be married
And raise a family (oh yea..)
Have a cozy little crib in the countrywith two children maybe three
I tell you I....can raise your lies down baby
It couldn't be a dreamcause too real it all seems
oooohhhh........
Chorus
But it was just my imagination (once again yea)
Runnin away with me (running away with me)
tell you it was just my imagination running away with me (away with me yea)
Verse 3-Gwyneth Paltrow and Babyface
Everynight on my knees
I pray Dear lord hear my plea yea
Don't ever let another take his love from me
Or I will surely die
Heavenly (heavenly) when your arms unfold me
I hear the tender upsity
But in reality
He doesn't even know me
Chorus
But it was just my imagination (ohh, so fly look out my window)
Runnin away with me (It's running away with me baby)
Just my imagination (runnin away)
running away with me (my baby, my sugar, my sweetie, look at my baby)
Just my imagination (ohh, soo fly look out my window)
Runnin away with me (It's runnin away with me)
Just my imagination (yeeaaaa)
running away with me (my baby, my sugar, my sweetie, look at my baby)
Just my imagination (ohh, soo fly look out my window)
Runnin away with me (It's runnin away with me)
Just my imagination (yeeaaaa)
Just My Imagination
Verse 1- Gwyneth Paltrow
Each day through my windowI watch him as he passes by
I say to myselfI'm so lucky he's so fly
To have a boy like himis truly a dream come true
Out of all the girlies in the world he belongs to you
Chorus
But it was just my imagination
Runnin away with me
tell you it was just my imagination
running away with me
Verse 2-Babyface
Soon we'll be married
And raise a family (oh yea..)
Have a cozy little crib in the countrywith two children maybe three
I tell you I....can raise your lies down baby
It couldn't be a dreamcause too real it all seems
oooohhhh........
Chorus
But it was just my imagination (once again yea)
Runnin away with me (running away with me)
tell you it was just my imagination running away with me (away with me yea)
Verse 3-Gwyneth Paltrow and Babyface
Everynight on my knees
I pray Dear lord hear my plea yea
Don't ever let another take his love from me
Or I will surely die
Heavenly (heavenly) when your arms unfold me
I hear the tender upsity
But in reality
He doesn't even know me
Chorus
But it was just my imagination (ohh, so fly look out my window)
Runnin away with me (It's running away with me baby)
Just my imagination (runnin away)
running away with me (my baby, my sugar, my sweetie, look at my baby)
Just my imagination (ohh, soo fly look out my window)
Runnin away with me (It's runnin away with me)
Just my imagination (yeeaaaa)
running away with me (my baby, my sugar, my sweetie, look at my baby)
Just my imagination (ohh, soo fly look out my window)
Runnin away with me (It's runnin away with me)
Just my imagination (yeeaaaa)
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Moving forward, without looking back...
Things happened for a reason….so passé, yet it’s turning out to be a universal truth.
It’s not everyday I get to make some effort to be a little closer to someone I really like. Something’s always holding me back whenever I plan to do so. It is possible that I’m lacking some courage, guts or perhaps confidence, yet whatever it is, I know it’s not going to turn into something I carefully plan about.
He is not that ideal, but he’s the one who made my heart consistently beat really fast…after a gazillion years!! He’s not great looking, yet he looks perfect on his rusty jeans on, rock start printed shirt, rasta looking bonnet, armed with the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen…..after a gazillion years again! He have this ultimate power leaving me speechless every time he pass by or simply glance at my direction --- NOW I’M BEING MUSHY!!!! See he got me speechless and mushy at the same time....it’s so impossible for me to be like that, but he made it possible.
I never realized how important the day we became acquaintance until I understand what all this mushiness I’m going through is. Now, we’re just one perfect strangers; nothing left but the memories where he always smile back at me.
I don’t know what I’ve done or probably my stupid mouth did it again that’s why things turned this way. It may be something stupid that I have had done that will always remind him every time he see me. Whatever it is, It’s me. It took me time to accept it. It crashes my ability to like who I am. My friend may be right, I better blindfold myself whenever I’m going to face a mirror, because what all I’m going to see is one unpleasing and very disappointing lass.
It made me feel sad for a few hours yet I realized one thing, this may sound stupid, but all this didn’t really break my heart, it was all replaced by irreplaceable disappointments. I’m more disappointed at him than I am to myself. There are several things he has done that melt my mushiness and simply throw at the trash. All that’s left of me are series of "why" questions, unfathomable disenchantments and the courage to move on, not taking a fleeting looks at his direction.
It’s not everyday I get to make some effort to be a little closer to someone I really like. Something’s always holding me back whenever I plan to do so. It is possible that I’m lacking some courage, guts or perhaps confidence, yet whatever it is, I know it’s not going to turn into something I carefully plan about.
He is not that ideal, but he’s the one who made my heart consistently beat really fast…after a gazillion years!! He’s not great looking, yet he looks perfect on his rusty jeans on, rock start printed shirt, rasta looking bonnet, armed with the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen…..after a gazillion years again! He have this ultimate power leaving me speechless every time he pass by or simply glance at my direction --- NOW I’M BEING MUSHY!!!! See he got me speechless and mushy at the same time....it’s so impossible for me to be like that, but he made it possible.
I never realized how important the day we became acquaintance until I understand what all this mushiness I’m going through is. Now, we’re just one perfect strangers; nothing left but the memories where he always smile back at me.
I don’t know what I’ve done or probably my stupid mouth did it again that’s why things turned this way. It may be something stupid that I have had done that will always remind him every time he see me. Whatever it is, It’s me. It took me time to accept it. It crashes my ability to like who I am. My friend may be right, I better blindfold myself whenever I’m going to face a mirror, because what all I’m going to see is one unpleasing and very disappointing lass.
It made me feel sad for a few hours yet I realized one thing, this may sound stupid, but all this didn’t really break my heart, it was all replaced by irreplaceable disappointments. I’m more disappointed at him than I am to myself. There are several things he has done that melt my mushiness and simply throw at the trash. All that’s left of me are series of "why" questions, unfathomable disenchantments and the courage to move on, not taking a fleeting looks at his direction.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Stream to scream??
It was saturday morning that i have to go to the office to meet my agents for a huddle when i heard a shocking and interesting news --- Stream Global contact center merge with Etelecare GS.
I guess I was the one who's updated instead of me updating agents on what to do with their calls.
I watched the agents' reactions when their Team Leader was carefully breaking the the news and seems like preparing himself for more violent reactions, but lo and behold, all they did was give a sigh of disappointment, grin and most of them have no reactions at all!
In general most of the agents around me are worried. There are so many "what if" questions going around and a very complex "what-will-happend-to-us?" look in the face. It's the same case here on the support department. Numerous rumors are going around and it is somehow making us think of ourselves and for some, their growth in this industry.
Personally, I am disappointed. The fact that Etelecare can no longer stand on its own means something really big. I was once not that proud working on a BPO industry not until i've experience the Etelecare culture and their drive to make a mark world wide. I must admit that right now i'm not that fully happy with my work, what more now that a lot of changes are going on and it's getting worst than i can think of. I'm not saying that Stream is a bad company or anything like that, I don't know anything about them so I can't really say anything good or bad about them. What I care for (for whatever reason) is the company i'm in right now.
Will they increase our pay? Is that one of the reason why we'll no longer have our PA? Does that mean that new hires get to have more pay thatn those whose working here like the entire of their lives? Where have all our good and great boss gone? Why most of them left us? Is it that worst that you need to consider other company and leave us hanging? Will it be more hard for us to get promoted? What's the next step??
All i know...we just have to expect the worst and hope for the best.
I want to blame it on global recession and we are directly affected by that. Yet there's nothing I can do but be thankful because I still have a job to keep.
The only thing all of us have is the hope that Stream will not have a bad effects on Etelecare or vice versa. We hope that nothing really big will be compromised by this decision.
Cross our fingers!Ü
I guess I was the one who's updated instead of me updating agents on what to do with their calls.
I watched the agents' reactions when their Team Leader was carefully breaking the the news and seems like preparing himself for more violent reactions, but lo and behold, all they did was give a sigh of disappointment, grin and most of them have no reactions at all!
In general most of the agents around me are worried. There are so many "what if" questions going around and a very complex "what-will-happend-to-us?" look in the face. It's the same case here on the support department. Numerous rumors are going around and it is somehow making us think of ourselves and for some, their growth in this industry.
Personally, I am disappointed. The fact that Etelecare can no longer stand on its own means something really big. I was once not that proud working on a BPO industry not until i've experience the Etelecare culture and their drive to make a mark world wide. I must admit that right now i'm not that fully happy with my work, what more now that a lot of changes are going on and it's getting worst than i can think of. I'm not saying that Stream is a bad company or anything like that, I don't know anything about them so I can't really say anything good or bad about them. What I care for (for whatever reason) is the company i'm in right now.
Will they increase our pay? Is that one of the reason why we'll no longer have our PA? Does that mean that new hires get to have more pay thatn those whose working here like the entire of their lives? Where have all our good and great boss gone? Why most of them left us? Is it that worst that you need to consider other company and leave us hanging? Will it be more hard for us to get promoted? What's the next step??
All i know...we just have to expect the worst and hope for the best.
I want to blame it on global recession and we are directly affected by that. Yet there's nothing I can do but be thankful because I still have a job to keep.
The only thing all of us have is the hope that Stream will not have a bad effects on Etelecare or vice versa. We hope that nothing really big will be compromised by this decision.
Cross our fingers!Ü
Friday, August 7, 2009
Where have all my ideas gone?
It’s been almost a month since I get to put into words all the thoughts and ideas that successfully intervene in my life and I think there’s no one to blame but my great ways in procrastinating.
It’s the culprit, the robber, the one I should put all the blames on.
I procrastinate that’s why I don’t get to love my job and didn’t get to find a career.
I procrastinate that’s why I’m still single.
I procrastinate that’s why I don’t really get to appreciate every single time I have.
I procrastinate as an alternative way for me if I can’t stop from what I’m doing to write down what I have in mind and heart.
Above all, I blame myself for doing it. Or maybe I should blame myself for not doing something about it. Procrastinating is eating my senses. I allow that to happen so I’m suffering the consequences. It’s me who can’t be brave enough to make a step forward and take the risk to defeat procrastinating. I let it take control MY steering wheel.
Time was wasted and there’s nothing I can do to get back on something that’s lost. I think the best thing to do is, oh well, as much as possible, don’t allow procrastinating to take over me. How? I don’t know. I think I should start doing what matters most – putting my thoughts into words, WRITE! I will try my best not to drag my feet when something came up and will not be hesitant to take time on putting into writing whatever it is that will just hit me. Writing is the only thing I get to do where I put my heart in and I know, It’s unfair for myself if I will take it for granted.
It’s the culprit, the robber, the one I should put all the blames on.
I procrastinate that’s why I don’t get to love my job and didn’t get to find a career.
I procrastinate that’s why I’m still single.
I procrastinate that’s why I don’t really get to appreciate every single time I have.
I procrastinate as an alternative way for me if I can’t stop from what I’m doing to write down what I have in mind and heart.
Above all, I blame myself for doing it. Or maybe I should blame myself for not doing something about it. Procrastinating is eating my senses. I allow that to happen so I’m suffering the consequences. It’s me who can’t be brave enough to make a step forward and take the risk to defeat procrastinating. I let it take control MY steering wheel.
Time was wasted and there’s nothing I can do to get back on something that’s lost. I think the best thing to do is, oh well, as much as possible, don’t allow procrastinating to take over me. How? I don’t know. I think I should start doing what matters most – putting my thoughts into words, WRITE! I will try my best not to drag my feet when something came up and will not be hesitant to take time on putting into writing whatever it is that will just hit me. Writing is the only thing I get to do where I put my heart in and I know, It’s unfair for myself if I will take it for granted.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Dreamer's list
Changes took place and it shook my comfort zone.
This is just one of those boring days i have to face, for me to earn a little cash and must admit, i know that it will take me some time to cope with the situation. Since killing time has been my hobby for the past few days, there's a lot of things going on my mind. Bad and good but never naughty..sweet and sometimes that i have to snap back to reality and face the real deal.
I just came out with the list i usually think of and questions in my mind i try to answer on my own.
1. What would I be like if I'm working on an advertising firm?
2. Me working on a photoshoot as a photographer on a popular magazine...like nat geo..hehehe
3. I'm part of a band..playing drums or lead guitar.
4. What if me and "shaider" are together...and his wife find out about it?!?!
5. I'm driving my own customized Eclipse.
6. Directing my own Indie Film.
7. Someone singing "Hard to Believe" (Eheads) for me.
8. Me singing "I Miss You" (incubus) to someone.
9. I'm undergoing to a MAJOR make-over.
10. Designing my own house.
11. If I am to manage a business what would it be??
12. Kicking one of the boss's ass.
13. Repramand the agent I'm rating
oh well..here are just some on my list....
as much as i want to elaborate more about this, it will take some more time for me to do so. Each of them have thier own story and most of them doesn't have an ending yet. Oh well.. guess day dreaming is something most people do when they are usually stuck on a traffic.Ü
This is just one of those boring days i have to face, for me to earn a little cash and must admit, i know that it will take me some time to cope with the situation. Since killing time has been my hobby for the past few days, there's a lot of things going on my mind. Bad and good but never naughty..sweet and sometimes that i have to snap back to reality and face the real deal.
I just came out with the list i usually think of and questions in my mind i try to answer on my own.
1. What would I be like if I'm working on an advertising firm?
2. Me working on a photoshoot as a photographer on a popular magazine...like nat geo..hehehe
3. I'm part of a band..playing drums or lead guitar.
4. What if me and "shaider" are together...and his wife find out about it?!?!
5. I'm driving my own customized Eclipse.
6. Directing my own Indie Film.
7. Someone singing "Hard to Believe" (Eheads) for me.
8. Me singing "I Miss You" (incubus) to someone.
9. I'm undergoing to a MAJOR make-over.
10. Designing my own house.
11. If I am to manage a business what would it be??
12. Kicking one of the boss's ass.
13. Repramand the agent I'm rating
oh well..here are just some on my list....
as much as i want to elaborate more about this, it will take some more time for me to do so. Each of them have thier own story and most of them doesn't have an ending yet. Oh well.. guess day dreaming is something most people do when they are usually stuck on a traffic.Ü
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Living a Happy Ending (??)
I do hope that life is as easy as finding something that will make you happy and deciding to live with it and a happily ever after story goes on.
Life is not really a fairy tale story that we used to read and dreamed of when we're still young.OH c'mon! i know you learned about that the day your first love broke your heart! Prince charmings don't just come your way, rescue you from distress and sweep you off your feet. Fact is, you have to wait or find for the right one and worst is chase someone you know will never love you in return.
Castles isn't as good as what Disney Land have. It wasn't extravagant, dancing, singing, and laying your head on the sand while watching the stars dance the night away; i guess that's why you have to pay for entrance fee if you want to experience a fairy tale like life. snap snap!! Life is NOT just like that.
I guess what most of the details i missed are the adventures of the characters for them to reach their happy ending.
It's no fun to be poisoned by your stepmother...it's not fun to be poisoned by anybody! It's not fun to lose a pretty glass shoe, to get lost in the woods, to kiss a frog, to be treated badly by your stepsisters, or for someone to attempt stabbing you at your back.
It's true that life isn't a fairy tale story because I don't live my life in fantasies every single day. Yet i know i can have my own happy endings, i will find my prince, it doesn't really matter if i get to live in a castle or a cottage as long as my crib is filled with love and hope. Those were just the things I think that will make me happy.
I cry, someone out there wishing me badluck but a lot of my friends are sharing all the luck they can get with me the same way i do with them, i once kisssed a frog but i turned into a frog instead of him turning into my Prince,i got lost not just in the woods but in the jungle(and still getting lost) and my adventures are more fun than what Cinderella and the rest of the princesses have. I guess i am no VIP when it comes to
facing trials in life!
See it's just a twist of fate....and in reality all "happy endings" takes a lot of effort...and even that effort will not be enough to make some people live with it and be contented. Life have a very tricky way of playing games with us! I guess you'll know you won the game if one found whatever it is that will make that person happy and decided to live with it happily ever after...
You think you found your happiness?
Life is not really a fairy tale story that we used to read and dreamed of when we're still young.OH c'mon! i know you learned about that the day your first love broke your heart! Prince charmings don't just come your way, rescue you from distress and sweep you off your feet. Fact is, you have to wait or find for the right one and worst is chase someone you know will never love you in return.
Castles isn't as good as what Disney Land have. It wasn't extravagant, dancing, singing, and laying your head on the sand while watching the stars dance the night away; i guess that's why you have to pay for entrance fee if you want to experience a fairy tale like life. snap snap!! Life is NOT just like that.
I guess what most of the details i missed are the adventures of the characters for them to reach their happy ending.
It's no fun to be poisoned by your stepmother...it's not fun to be poisoned by anybody! It's not fun to lose a pretty glass shoe, to get lost in the woods, to kiss a frog, to be treated badly by your stepsisters, or for someone to attempt stabbing you at your back.
It's true that life isn't a fairy tale story because I don't live my life in fantasies every single day. Yet i know i can have my own happy endings, i will find my prince, it doesn't really matter if i get to live in a castle or a cottage as long as my crib is filled with love and hope. Those were just the things I think that will make me happy.
I cry, someone out there wishing me badluck but a lot of my friends are sharing all the luck they can get with me the same way i do with them, i once kisssed a frog but i turned into a frog instead of him turning into my Prince,i got lost not just in the woods but in the jungle(and still getting lost) and my adventures are more fun than what Cinderella and the rest of the princesses have. I guess i am no VIP when it comes to
facing trials in life!
See it's just a twist of fate....and in reality all "happy endings" takes a lot of effort...and even that effort will not be enough to make some people live with it and be contented. Life have a very tricky way of playing games with us! I guess you'll know you won the game if one found whatever it is that will make that person happy and decided to live with it happily ever after...
You think you found your happiness?
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Captain Who?!?!
Sino nga ba si Kapitan Sino?
Kapitan ano??!!
Mali! Kapitan Sino!!
Oh eh sino nga si Kapitan Watever?!?!
...hindi siya isang malaking joke,pero ang buhay niya parang isang malaking joke lang ang lahat. Siya ang bida na fictional character sa pang-7 libro ni bob Ong, na tulad ng buhay mo at buhay ko, posibleng wala ring happy ending. Posibleng meron, but one thing is for sure, tulad ng buhay niya, malamang din sa mga oras na to, jino-joke ka lang ng fate mo.
Oh eh sino nga si Kapitan Chorva???
Naintriga ako nung sabihin sa'kin ng pamangkin ko ang bagong book na toh. It's about a super hero na may usual discovery ng super power ability and the story goes on. So what makes it unsual compared sa biography ni Superman, Batman, Spiderman at Bioman??
Si Kapitan Sino, may side-kick na walang kwenta pero the best. The besk kasi simple lang sing tao; malakas mang-asar, mahilig makipag phone-pal,nagsasabi lagi ng totoo kahit nakakayamot na, at sumusuporta sa kaibigan hanggang kulungan!
Ang leading lady ni Kapitan Sino, hindi yung super sexy at damsel in distress ang drama, d tulad ng mga ibang leading lady ng mga super hero jan. Siguro ang masaklap din dun, hindi man lang nia na-kiss yung girl nia kahit sa cheeks man lang!
Hindi ulila sa magulang si Kapitan Sino, hindi inabuso ng kamag-anak, hindi sumikat kahit iligtas pa niya ang buong Pelaez, at siya lang ang super hero na ibinintang ang pagkamatay ng kapitbahay dahil sa lung cancer.
Mukha siyang tanga sa costume niya pero ok lang.
Feeling ko wala siang abs, hindi siya drop dead gorgeous kasi nga isa siyang malaking tanga sa costume/disguise niya! Pero ok lang sa kanya!! cute noh?!
Masasabi kong makulet siya, mabait ng kaibigan, masipag, mahal ang trabaho niya, mapagmahal at mabait na anak, at higit sa lahatresposableng mamamayan! reactive masyado...OA minsan, pero nagampanan niya ang papel niya sa lipunan ayon sa kanyang kakayahan.
EH SINO NGA SI KAPITAN SINO?!?!
Siya ay pwedeng ikaw, ako o yung mukhang loser/tanga/nerd/sa-friendster-lang-may-friends na katabi mo! Sinasalamin niya ang mga twenty somthing na tao na hinaharap ang quarterlife crisis, teenager na feeling niya kaya niyang gawin ang lahat, isang idealist na akala niya mababago niya ang mundo; nalulungkot, tumatawa, naiinlove, nagiging masaya, nadidisappoint, kwela, frustrated, makata, nasasaktan at ang hangad lang ay kabutihan para sa mga taong-bayan.
Tulad natin, si Kapitan Sino ay may love-hate relationship sa life; iisa lang ang kakahantungan...super hero siya hindi immortal.
Ganyan ang pagkakakilala ko kay Kapitan Sino...
Kapitan ano??!!
Mali! Kapitan Sino!!
Oh eh sino nga si Kapitan Watever?!?!
...hindi siya isang malaking joke,pero ang buhay niya parang isang malaking joke lang ang lahat. Siya ang bida na fictional character sa pang-7 libro ni bob Ong, na tulad ng buhay mo at buhay ko, posibleng wala ring happy ending. Posibleng meron, but one thing is for sure, tulad ng buhay niya, malamang din sa mga oras na to, jino-joke ka lang ng fate mo.
Oh eh sino nga si Kapitan Chorva???
Naintriga ako nung sabihin sa'kin ng pamangkin ko ang bagong book na toh. It's about a super hero na may usual discovery ng super power ability and the story goes on. So what makes it unsual compared sa biography ni Superman, Batman, Spiderman at Bioman??
Si Kapitan Sino, may side-kick na walang kwenta pero the best. The besk kasi simple lang sing tao; malakas mang-asar, mahilig makipag phone-pal,nagsasabi lagi ng totoo kahit nakakayamot na, at sumusuporta sa kaibigan hanggang kulungan!
Ang leading lady ni Kapitan Sino, hindi yung super sexy at damsel in distress ang drama, d tulad ng mga ibang leading lady ng mga super hero jan. Siguro ang masaklap din dun, hindi man lang nia na-kiss yung girl nia kahit sa cheeks man lang!
Hindi ulila sa magulang si Kapitan Sino, hindi inabuso ng kamag-anak, hindi sumikat kahit iligtas pa niya ang buong Pelaez, at siya lang ang super hero na ibinintang ang pagkamatay ng kapitbahay dahil sa lung cancer.
Mukha siyang tanga sa costume niya pero ok lang.
Feeling ko wala siang abs, hindi siya drop dead gorgeous kasi nga isa siyang malaking tanga sa costume/disguise niya! Pero ok lang sa kanya!! cute noh?!
Masasabi kong makulet siya, mabait ng kaibigan, masipag, mahal ang trabaho niya, mapagmahal at mabait na anak, at higit sa lahatresposableng mamamayan! reactive masyado...OA minsan, pero nagampanan niya ang papel niya sa lipunan ayon sa kanyang kakayahan.
EH SINO NGA SI KAPITAN SINO?!?!
Siya ay pwedeng ikaw, ako o yung mukhang loser/tanga/nerd/sa-friendster-lang-may-friends na katabi mo! Sinasalamin niya ang mga twenty somthing na tao na hinaharap ang quarterlife crisis, teenager na feeling niya kaya niyang gawin ang lahat, isang idealist na akala niya mababago niya ang mundo; nalulungkot, tumatawa, naiinlove, nagiging masaya, nadidisappoint, kwela, frustrated, makata, nasasaktan at ang hangad lang ay kabutihan para sa mga taong-bayan.
Tulad natin, si Kapitan Sino ay may love-hate relationship sa life; iisa lang ang kakahantungan...super hero siya hindi immortal.
Ganyan ang pagkakakilala ko kay Kapitan Sino...
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
La Mode
One of the changes i'm looking forward this year is my ultimate make-over!
Through these years i keep on sticking to my (oh so beloved) chucks, jeans ans shirt outfit., and now, i just figured out that i have to explore more when it comes to fashin and be a lil' adventurous when it comes to dressing up. Well, it doesn't really mean i have to wear something really wacky outfit, i just have to get used in wearing dresses, corporate attires and high heeled shoes that will somehow bring out the sassy yet sofisticated (naks!) part of me at the same time feeling comfortable on what i'm wearing.
I know this is going to be something and i'm pretty excited about it. I really don't care right now what some people will say about the changes i'll make for myself, but i have to listen though and somehow evaluate myself too...maybe what i'm wearing for the day might be tooo flashy or something.hehehe
I know this is the time i'll find Cosmopolitan and Elle mag will be really a big help for me!Ü
Through these years i keep on sticking to my (oh so beloved) chucks, jeans ans shirt outfit., and now, i just figured out that i have to explore more when it comes to fashin and be a lil' adventurous when it comes to dressing up. Well, it doesn't really mean i have to wear something really wacky outfit, i just have to get used in wearing dresses, corporate attires and high heeled shoes that will somehow bring out the sassy yet sofisticated (naks!) part of me at the same time feeling comfortable on what i'm wearing.
I know this is going to be something and i'm pretty excited about it. I really don't care right now what some people will say about the changes i'll make for myself, but i have to listen though and somehow evaluate myself too...maybe what i'm wearing for the day might be tooo flashy or something.hehehe
I know this is the time i'll find Cosmopolitan and Elle mag will be really a big help for me!Ü
Sunday, May 17, 2009
A week after...
It's been a week since we all gave tears and said goodbyes in daddy-lolo's burial.
Yes...it's our final goodbye to him and so many, i miss you, i love you and multitudes of thank yous' where he can no longer hear. It's heartbreaking that one have to leave before people realize his value and say the words we're all afraid or missed to say.
It may be too late but at the end, we all get to have the chance to see him with our Father and finally not just say how much he's loved but give him hugs and kisses we could've given to him while he's with us.
Continuous prayer for our love one....
Yes...it's our final goodbye to him and so many, i miss you, i love you and multitudes of thank yous' where he can no longer hear. It's heartbreaking that one have to leave before people realize his value and say the words we're all afraid or missed to say.
It may be too late but at the end, we all get to have the chance to see him with our Father and finally not just say how much he's loved but give him hugs and kisses we could've given to him while he's with us.
Continuous prayer for our love one....
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Death, tears and home made cookies
Last week was the tragic moment for our family when my daddy-lolo finally gave up and left us. He fought the battle and suffered enough to be forgiven from all his shortcomings and mistakes he have caused us, whether he mean it or not.
It's something i can't accept after making a deal with him that he can make it, that we will fight together and amidst my busy schedule, still see to it he's being taken care of. When he had his last breath, something just stabbed me in my chest, made me still and quiet...it sucks because it's a feeling i've been avoiding for a long time...sadness and tears. Another man in my life left again....
It's a struggle for me to work but it's more painful for me to just stay home and grieve about everything. I tried to keep myself busy and somehow it's a placebo from all the things i'm keeping myself from. Friends and officemates shared their hugs and some even tried their best to make me laugh...wich i believe a job well done. Yet there are moments i see myself staring at nowhere, thinking of the things i should've done and what are the things we had further done to save his valuable life. Now..everything is too late...he left with tears in his eyes.
Days had pass and i realized that they are right, I should be more happy for him because he's back in our Creator's arms. He no longer have to suffer from death-defying suction, no more needles on his hands, free from diapers and oxygen tank will no longer make him breath easier because wherever he is right now, i bet the air there is more fresher.
Relatives and friends gather on his wake to tell more stories about him. Rumors goes around among the family, different versions of one single event, cries from my dadi-lolo's wife, kids and sisters and a moment for us to see our long lost relatives. From tears to smiles, and i know he'll be delighted when he see all of us gathering and holding each other's hands as we recall all the funny and nice things (and even those not so nice), and even his ka-pilyohan.
Acceptance makes everything easier for us. Trust, that right now his soul is at peace and he's life is much better for him, and a bag of home made cookies to complete it all!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
I got this from Drei..
I am the ocean -- that never gets tired of coming back to the shore, that is you..
I am the voice you don't hear -- that continues to believe and fight for you..
I am a soul forgotten -- that weeps for every moment spent without you..
I am the star -- that chooses to shine only for you..
I am the song you don't listen with the ear of your heart..
I am the air -- that you unconsciously breath..
I am the blanket -- that covers you, protects you from this cold life..
I am the cigarette stick -- that you refuse to have,...
I am the phone -- that waits to hear your voice...
I am the rain -- that continues to fall for you....
Monday, April 20, 2009
can't find the right words...
Another friend moved on and I feel proud of her because she's brave enough to leave her comfort zone. On the other hand, I feel sad. Sad because I'll no longer see her every day.
Officially missing her…my boss, my friend, my sister and just turned out my mommy as well…all in one…
She's happy now and that's what matters the most...
Officially missing her…my boss, my friend, my sister and just turned out my mommy as well…all in one…
She's happy now and that's what matters the most...
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Monkey Junky!!Ü
"She's good and I really like her because she's a great teacher; she's 24 years old though and that's the problem..."
I heard that from my customer, while she's talking to someone, on the time I'm thinking really hard why I have to leave my work and find a job where I can put my heart on it. I'm aging and that makes me hopeless to continue on my dreams, I'm having this fear that my dreams might age as well and nothing can accept me, even the industry I want to be in. I don't expect any help from anybody, I'm used to it. I'm used in doing things by my own, if there are some who help me I know God send them over to save my ass, but that doesn't happened all the time, even in the time you badly need it.
At my age right now, I don't know what else I can do except from what I'm doing right now. THAT SUCKS!
I guess few signs of aging are countless fears, tons of responsibilities, all type of stress and pressures, numerous wants and needs and desperate days, doctors or over the counter meds that can't help me recover and at least make me feel beautiful on the ugliest moment in my life. I think the cure is within me...thinking positive i guess is one of the key.
Alright, so what's fun with aging? What is that thing that makes me feel and say it's ok? maybe there are some...
OK...
One thing i really love about getting old is i get to learn so many things in life. Another thing is i have to, if not required, to think mature and act one. Like what my Tita told me, growing old can really be annoying, but it's hell fun specially if you're learning!
Thing is, maturity doesn't come with age...so is respect, not all the time. I think maturity comes with learning from all the hardships in life and respect is something that's being earned.
I just hope every person realize the value of learning than aging...
I heard that from my customer, while she's talking to someone, on the time I'm thinking really hard why I have to leave my work and find a job where I can put my heart on it. I'm aging and that makes me hopeless to continue on my dreams, I'm having this fear that my dreams might age as well and nothing can accept me, even the industry I want to be in. I don't expect any help from anybody, I'm used to it. I'm used in doing things by my own, if there are some who help me I know God send them over to save my ass, but that doesn't happened all the time, even in the time you badly need it.
At my age right now, I don't know what else I can do except from what I'm doing right now. THAT SUCKS!
I guess few signs of aging are countless fears, tons of responsibilities, all type of stress and pressures, numerous wants and needs and desperate days, doctors or over the counter meds that can't help me recover and at least make me feel beautiful on the ugliest moment in my life. I think the cure is within me...thinking positive i guess is one of the key.
Alright, so what's fun with aging? What is that thing that makes me feel and say it's ok? maybe there are some...
OK...
One thing i really love about getting old is i get to learn so many things in life. Another thing is i have to, if not required, to think mature and act one. Like what my Tita told me, growing old can really be annoying, but it's hell fun specially if you're learning!
Thing is, maturity doesn't come with age...so is respect, not all the time. I think maturity comes with learning from all the hardships in life and respect is something that's being earned.
I just hope every person realize the value of learning than aging...
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Mushy Mushy!!!Ü
i'm browsing through my outlook and found something interesting and just want to share it with all'ya guys. Thanks to Patrick Villaranda for the spam i keep for 2years already, don't know where he got this though...enjoy:
If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him Feel honored that love came and called at your door.
But gently refuse the gift you cannot return.
If you fall I love with another, and he falls in love with you And then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim or assess blame Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.
Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses all.
All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes to your life.
Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out to give it away.
Give it back to the person who brought it alive to you.
Give it to others who are deem poor in spirit.
Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.
This is where many lovers go wrong
Having been so long without love, they understand love only as they need.
They see their hearts empty places that will be filled by love.
As they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.
Remember this and keep it to your heart
Love has its own time, its own season, and its own reason for coming and going.
You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of the person you love There is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.
Love always had been and always will be a mystery.
Be glad that it comes to live for a moment in your life.
If you keep your life open, it will come again.
Failure is only the opportunity to begin again more intelligently.
-- taken from a gaming site... layo!
FALLING IN LOVE
If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you Be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you.
Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.
If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you Be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you.
Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.
If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him Feel honored that love came and called at your door.
But gently refuse the gift you cannot return.
If you fall I love with another, and he falls in love with you And then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim or assess blame Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.
Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses all.
All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes to your life.
Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out to give it away.
Give it back to the person who brought it alive to you.
Give it to others who are deem poor in spirit.
Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.
This is where many lovers go wrong
Having been so long without love, they understand love only as they need.
They see their hearts empty places that will be filled by love.
As they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.
Remember this and keep it to your heart
Love has its own time, its own season, and its own reason for coming and going.
You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of the person you love There is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.
Love always had been and always will be a mystery.
Be glad that it comes to live for a moment in your life.
If you keep your life open, it will come again.
Failure is only the opportunity to begin again more intelligently.
-- taken from a gaming site... layo!
Saturday, March 28, 2009
The End is about to Begin!!
Everyone at the office right now, no matter how small or big the program, is talking about the much awaited promotion for quarter 3. Haven’t attended the meeting yet but based from the agents’ reactions, it is catastrophic!!
The goal of the changes on the promotion is to "help" agents…oh well..get "easily" promoted but the time frame for the process to take place is unbelievably true…true to be good. Based from the people who attended the meeting, one have to wait 6 (fuckin’) months to be promoted, regardless what level is that, when matter of fact they want their ass off their chair right after 3 months of getting promoted: it’s one of those undying moment of submitting LOIs and preparing/updating their resumes’/CV and the infamous Resignation Letter.
Some are being positive about the whole changes (most likely our boss), but the whole people here have disappointments in their face and most simply don’t care much about it. Here goes another drastic change that will shook someone’s comfort zone till it gets really irritated and not show up the next day at the office.
Can’t wait till Monday when they gather our team at the conference room and tell us about the so called "good news"…
I’ll enjoy the weekend for now and just chill at the house while watching HBO or cinemaone while eating cheetos or chocolate/s smuggled at the fridge….moolah free!!Ü
The goal of the changes on the promotion is to "help" agents…oh well..get "easily" promoted but the time frame for the process to take place is unbelievably true…true to be good. Based from the people who attended the meeting, one have to wait 6 (fuckin’) months to be promoted, regardless what level is that, when matter of fact they want their ass off their chair right after 3 months of getting promoted: it’s one of those undying moment of submitting LOIs and preparing/updating their resumes’/CV and the infamous Resignation Letter.
Some are being positive about the whole changes (most likely our boss), but the whole people here have disappointments in their face and most simply don’t care much about it. Here goes another drastic change that will shook someone’s comfort zone till it gets really irritated and not show up the next day at the office.
Can’t wait till Monday when they gather our team at the conference room and tell us about the so called "good news"…
I’ll enjoy the weekend for now and just chill at the house while watching HBO or cinemaone while eating cheetos or chocolate/s smuggled at the fridge….moolah free!!Ü
Something to be really scared of...
I know a lot of people there are being hooked on to somethings and starting to be really fearless and "adventerous" but i hope this old report would be a lesson to some people out there:
Got this from: http://www.pillreports.com/index.php#news
check this out:
January 19, 2009-Ecstasy warning after man's death (UK Hampshire)
Posted by johnboy @ 10:14 pm GMT
A man whose body was found in Hampshire on Saturday morning is thought to have died after taking an ecstasy tablet from a rogue batch, police have said.
The homeless man, in his 20s and from Poland, bought the pill in Winchester city centre on Friday, officers said.
Paramedics called to a house in Christchurch Road found his body.
Police think the rogue tablets, which are white and diamond shaped with a score mark across the middle, may be circulating in the city.
They have urged anyone who may have bought pills in the last 48 hours to be aware of the risk.
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/england/hampshire/7836284.stm
Got this from: http://www.pillreports.com/index.php#news
check this out:
January 19, 2009-Ecstasy warning after man's death (UK Hampshire)
Posted by johnboy @ 10:14 pm GMT
A man whose body was found in Hampshire on Saturday morning is thought to have died after taking an ecstasy tablet from a rogue batch, police have said.
The homeless man, in his 20s and from Poland, bought the pill in Winchester city centre on Friday, officers said.
Paramedics called to a house in Christchurch Road found his body.
Police think the rogue tablets, which are white and diamond shaped with a score mark across the middle, may be circulating in the city.
They have urged anyone who may have bought pills in the last 48 hours to be aware of the risk.
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/england/hampshire/7836284.stm
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Wooootwoooo!!!
It's the most wonderful time of the year...
it's not yet christmas and i'm not even that close of creating my shopping list for the yuletide season, but there's something about this month that makes it somehow wonderful.
It could be some series of events or several gifts God has given me that make me feel somehow happy amidst the incontentment in my job and some depressions i'm currently facing.
This past few days i get to evaluate myself and have a list of "what-went-wrong?" and "how-can-i-make-it-better?" which leads me to a realization that i have several signs of aging each single day. A week wouldn't end without me learning something new in life. Here are just some list of things i learned about:
1. Talk is cheap....blabbering is the cheapest!!!
2. Think before you say anything...(this really works and will save you from any "damage")
3. Practice so you can make it as a habit...
4. Go back to basics from time to time, that way you'll get to realize what are the simple things that you missed.
5. If that person you love didn't love you back, it's ok...know how to get back on him smoothly...that's why they invented sweet revenge.
6. Don't just trust anybody!!!! JUST DON'T!!!
There are other things to learn and that what makes everything wonderful...
it's not yet christmas and i'm not even that close of creating my shopping list for the yuletide season, but there's something about this month that makes it somehow wonderful.
It could be some series of events or several gifts God has given me that make me feel somehow happy amidst the incontentment in my job and some depressions i'm currently facing.
This past few days i get to evaluate myself and have a list of "what-went-wrong?" and "how-can-i-make-it-better?" which leads me to a realization that i have several signs of aging each single day. A week wouldn't end without me learning something new in life. Here are just some list of things i learned about:
1. Talk is cheap....blabbering is the cheapest!!!
2. Think before you say anything...(this really works and will save you from any "damage")
3. Practice so you can make it as a habit...
4. Go back to basics from time to time, that way you'll get to realize what are the simple things that you missed.
5. If that person you love didn't love you back, it's ok...know how to get back on him smoothly...that's why they invented sweet revenge.
6. Don't just trust anybody!!!! JUST DON'T!!!
There are other things to learn and that what makes everything wonderful...
Saturday, March 21, 2009
almost...Lost in transition
"Thank you for calling *****b****!!"
"I'll be very much glad to assist you!"
...those were my undying lines every single day of my "career" and it starting to piss me off. There are several reasons why, after coming up with reasons why i should stay, i suddenly feel this way.
...It's not because of the people i talked to over the phone. I should take the blame on me. I'm no longer happy of what i'm doing. I allow myself to get stuck on what i'm doing. I let them overtake my ship instead of me being the captain of it.
I'm sick...
I'm tired...
and
I'm stuck...
"Thank you for calling...I hope you have a great day..."
"I'll be very much glad to assist you!"
...those were my undying lines every single day of my "career" and it starting to piss me off. There are several reasons why, after coming up with reasons why i should stay, i suddenly feel this way.
...It's not because of the people i talked to over the phone. I should take the blame on me. I'm no longer happy of what i'm doing. I allow myself to get stuck on what i'm doing. I let them overtake my ship instead of me being the captain of it.
I'm sick...
I'm tired...
and
I'm stuck...
"Thank you for calling...I hope you have a great day..."
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
I thought i thought of something...
After a few weeks, i'm back. There are some things in my mind that just stagnate and i let it be that way...my bad.
What i feel right now is somehow annoying and it's everything of anything!
I dont want my job but i have no choice but to keep it; even my reasons for staying aren't enough to keep me still making me think of other more reasons to stay, funny is i never run out of it and even the most nonsense one mark a point for me...pathetic....
Pathetic and i know i am but i don't mind at all. Even the most luckiest person in world find his or herself pathetic at one point of his or her life. It makes me more human.
What makes me more of a human are the happiness and endless pain. It's where i get to learn more things; so who says after earning a degree, a masters or the highest recognition of learning, someone really has to stop from learning. If one does, that's the most nastiest thing ever!
It's nasty when employees tend to kiss their employers' ass thinking they will be promoted without doing less and more ass kissing. Who ever thought of that, inventented that or came up with that, definetely has nothing in his life right now but riches that can be taken away from him in a snap...hello!!! GOD DO EXIST!!
What made me say that God exist? If you believe that someone out there made that computer you're using right now, then think who made you're heart that's beating right now...who made you're parent's heart and your parent's parent's heart?
Heart could be the most sensitive part of once body. Do i really need to be scientific here?? i mean, even, "the rock" once had a broken heart and made him cry.
Cry...cry...that's all left for me to do at the end of every day...hais.
What i feel right now is somehow annoying and it's everything of anything!
I dont want my job but i have no choice but to keep it; even my reasons for staying aren't enough to keep me still making me think of other more reasons to stay, funny is i never run out of it and even the most nonsense one mark a point for me...pathetic....
Pathetic and i know i am but i don't mind at all. Even the most luckiest person in world find his or herself pathetic at one point of his or her life. It makes me more human.
What makes me more of a human are the happiness and endless pain. It's where i get to learn more things; so who says after earning a degree, a masters or the highest recognition of learning, someone really has to stop from learning. If one does, that's the most nastiest thing ever!
It's nasty when employees tend to kiss their employers' ass thinking they will be promoted without doing less and more ass kissing. Who ever thought of that, inventented that or came up with that, definetely has nothing in his life right now but riches that can be taken away from him in a snap...hello!!! GOD DO EXIST!!
What made me say that God exist? If you believe that someone out there made that computer you're using right now, then think who made you're heart that's beating right now...who made you're parent's heart and your parent's parent's heart?
Heart could be the most sensitive part of once body. Do i really need to be scientific here?? i mean, even, "the rock" once had a broken heart and made him cry.
Cry...cry...that's all left for me to do at the end of every day...hais.
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