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*everything here are random thoughts of a crazy mind*

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

5 Things You Need To Know About Twilight

I'm not a big fan of Twilight series but i just saw this review about the book and movie...natuwa ako..yun lang..hehe..share ko lang sa inio...

href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5CGuest%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtml1%5C01%5Cclip_editdata.mso">By Graeme McMillan, 12:00PM Sun Nov 9 2008, 18,812 views

Love it or hate it - and judging by your comments, most of you are in the latter camp - there's no escaping the fact that Twilight is already one of the most anticipated movies of the year, and may become one of the most successful, as well. Because we know that you're all about keeping up with the zeitgeist, we're giving you five things you need to know about the emo vampire series that's already taken over bookstores, MySpace, and the heart of your little sister.

1: The Books Are Popular. Very Popular.
Sure, we're not talking Harry Potter levels yet - despite the many comparisons that Twilight has drawn to the wizarding series, mostly because it's a popular young adult series of novels that's transcended its target audience - but 17 million book sales in the three years since the release of the first book is still nothing to be sneezed at, and the books have collectively topped the New York Times bestseller list for close to a year. Face it; more people have read this than anything that inspired Iron Man.

Not to put to much pressure on the movie, but

people are already writing about the way in which Twilight The Movie unites women of all ages in their lust for the franchise:

Let me introduce you to one of the most powerful new groups in Hollywood. It's not a group of actors, producers or directors. It's the rather interesting hybrid demographic who are getting their knickers in a twist over Twilight, due to be released in the UK next month... Teenage girls, young female adults and their mums converged at the Twilight conference at Comic-Con back in July, filling Hall H to capacity and rupturing tonsils at the appearance of their hunkalicious hero.

Believe me, this demographic is out there. They just don't have a name yet.

They're naming themselves, however; there are fansites called Twilight Moms (and its related site, Twilight-Teens - and also Twilight20somethings, just in case you don't fit into either of the previous two) as well as Team Jacob, Team Edward, Team Switzerland and even Team Twilightist amongst many others out there, each one a demonstration of obsession with the novels' familiar tale of a boy, a girl and the unspoken love that dare not speak its name.

2: The Books Aren't Very Good.
Critical reception to Twilight, the first book in the series was marginally positive (Booklist's "There are some flaws here—a plot that could have been tightened, an overreliance on adjectives and adverbs to bolster dialogue—but this dark romance seeps into the soul" being essentially the tenor of most mainstream reviews), but each successive book received poorer reviews, with Breaking Dawn, the final book getting drubbings from the LA Time's ("The problem is Stephenie Meyer is no J.K. Rowling... We would have much preferred the whole thing to end in book three, "Eclipse," with yes, some happiness for Bella, but also some angst, some heartbreak, and a dark, ominous future looming"), Publisher's Weekly ("[G]randeur is out. This isn't about happy endings; it's about gratification") and Entertainment Weekly("[You'll] abruptly lose all patience when... Meyer takes her supernatural love story several bizarre steps too far"). We may be biased, but sister site Jezebel came up with our favorite review:

It's 754 pages long, its heroine's dominant personality trait is low self-esteem, and, as Amazon reviewer Eventide points out, nobody really has to give up anything. Even the tedium of immortality is glossed over — these vampires just keep busy with their hobbies. If I had an eternity to read, I still might never pick up this book again.

3: The Writer Can Be A Bit Of A Prima Donna.
Although the Twilight series officially finished with the fourth book, Breaking Dawn, there was a fifth book planned, Midnight Sun, that would've retold the events of the first book from the hero's perspective. But then a first draft of the book's opening appeared online, and author Stephenie Meyer posted this response on her website:

I did not want my readers to experience Midnight Sun before it was completed, edited and published. I think it is important for everybody to understand that what happened was a huge violation of my rights as an author, not to mention me as a human being... So where does this leave Midnight Sun? My first feeling was that there was no way to continue. Writing isn't like math; in math, two plus two always equals four no matter what your mood is like. With writing, the way you feel changes everything. If I tried to write Midnight Sun now, in my current frame of mind, James would probably win and all the Cullens would die, which wouldn't dovetail too well with the original story. In any case, I feel too sad about what has happened to continue working on Midnight Sun, and so it is on hold indefinitely.

(She's since recanted slightly, telling Entertainment Weekly that "[t]he funny thing about that statement is I didn't actually write the majority of it... in the end only the one or two sentences written by me seem really jarring [compared with everything else], and people didn't get that there was sort of a joke in there." Midnight Sun, however, is still on hold.)

Nonetheless, she's kept a tight hold on the movie, only agreeing to the project in the first place when teeth size met her approval, and having final say on casting and the length and passion of final clinches. "It's been good for me just in general to have to speak up because I am so invested in this," she's explained.

4: VINOs: Vampires In Name Only.
The vampires in the Twilight books don't have elongated teeth, and they have no problem going out in daytime in their Pacific Northwest hometown, because it's so foggy (I can't tell if that's actually funny or just a kind of crappy dodge). They also, as almost every example of vampire fiction since, what, Anne Rice's Interview With A Vampire (or maybe Marilyn Ross' Barnabas Collins?), are tragic souls afflicted by a curse that don't really want to sink their teeth into humanity - and so, they eat animals and go on "hunting trips" to take care of their bloodlust. Yes, it's the Pacific Northwest Hipster Rural Lifestyle turned goth. Whatever happened to the good old days of Nosferatu and vampires who were unafraid to be vampires? I mean, if they have his pallor, why can't they have his mannerisms?

5: Remember The Golden Compass.
Summit Pictures, the studio behind the movie

may be nervous about saying that they've got a hit on their hands ahead of the movie's release,

but the movie is estimated to make somewhere between $20million and $50million in its first weekend, depending on how optimistic your sources are. It's worth remembering the fate of The Golden Compass, however; last year's "The New Harry Potter" had a similar amount of buzz pre-release, and a similarly impressive opening weekend... before audiences realized that the movies didn't live up to the books. Ultimately, the movie wasn't successful enough to warrant filming the second of the three His Dark Materials novels. The same thing may happen to Twilight. The figure to keep in mind is rumored to be $150 million; if Twilight makes less than that, you can forget about seeing New Moon, Eclipse or Breaking Dawn in theaters anytime soon. We can only hope.

Twilight is released in theaters November 21st.

Shifting!!

For whatever reasons, i become more aware of our society this past few days.

I dunno if it's something to do with being assigned on a morning shift and a chance to see "my boyfriends" that makes me mo reactive to whatever that's happening right now. Or maybe I should blame Mike Enriquez for this!

I start to give comments and shout out my opinion to whatever i see on news...my mama could've killed me though if i wasn't her daughter!

Yet i'm starting to like whatever i'm going through right now. I just hope i'll be more proactive than reactive though....mas nakatulong pa siguro ako.hehehe

Friday, November 28, 2008

Sniff...Sniff..

Sick...

I'm feeling really sick right now because of my colds!

It seems endless for it's been 4 days already and it's ruining my mood...

Thanksgiving just ended yet here i'am, my nose is so prepared for Christmas.

Back-off Rudolf...you're nose ain't so red as mine!Ü

Sunday, November 23, 2008

A night with Armin...

i got "hooked" but not that much.

it was one of the night i've been looking forward to and spending money for that party(ee) isn't bad at all....some people even said it's sulit!

yes i actually decided to go to that event than spend a night at the office. Darn i wouldn't want to miss this!

I forgot some details of the event but all i remember is i'm dancing like crazy, didn't care much of people around me and following the beat of Armin's music.

Armin van Buuren...i want you back!!! hehehe

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Bakc @ 1

5 more weeks and i'm almost ready to face hell.

I decided not to pursue the "career" i have (if there's any) at the LOB we have at Libis. Why? Because first, i don't see career growth for me and second I don't have "life" there!
Boredom eats my system every single day, or should i say night no matter how hard i try to boost myself and think of happy thoughts (not the same happy thoughts most guys think of, somebody just told me something about it and...errr...that's only for ma-L people! hehehe), making me unproductive and find ways to escape this bullcraps.

I love my boss though...some of them...and the people i work with...because we have the same
sentiments.

Resigning is always the first option i have, but something's holding me back...

I'm now using my friends to stay in this industry, then the rest will be history...I love my friends who allow me to use them though! hhehehehe

Now i'm having 7weeks training on a particular program i'm very much aware of, a program i've been with and learned so much in, a program where i cried, learned to love and never loved in return. I'm like a freshie!!! hehehehe

How long will i stay here?
I don't know...I'll leave it all to God!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Anything Goes

It’s when I’m on the deepest of all deep that I appreciate myself as a human.
The tears, frown, pain….all these makes me human.
All the imperfections in life epitomize my own mirror.
I can’t do something perfect like what some people expect me to be. I’m doing a good job at the moment I didn’t expect myself to have an outcome of something good as they said; then I walked away! I didn’t see it that way…I never did anyhow.

Call me manhid…stupida…I don’t freaking care!

Careless…that’s the state of mind I have at this moment. I don’t want to think of what people around me will say or think of. Let them blabber behind me…they can even kiss my ass and I don’t freaking mind.

I’m busy right now. Busy burning my lungs, busy drinking till I drop, busy updating my online accounts, busy watching t.v., busy taking a nap/sleeping at the office and busy thinking when will I be seriously busy.

*buzzzz*

Friday, October 24, 2008

In-2-it....goodbye i guess...

I decided to just stay in our apartment and give myself a break in contemplating what has happened to me these past few days and what will I have to do these coming days.

The farewell I’ve been waiting for just happened….almost.

Most of my friends said the decision I made was wrong….real one’s said, if that what my heart desires. Seriously, I no longer know what my heart desires. I’ll no longer be selling software over the phone but I will still somehow take calls.

“easy come, easy go….”

I only got one way ticket out of the account, and as much as I want to be back, I can’t….or should I say they will no longer allow me to. This is something I really wanted to do, but why am I not that really happy about this?

FLOATING…I’m just floating..

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Remember this:

My current joB as they say is a no-brainer job.

I used to agree with that, but after 2 years of working here, i just learned that interacting with people of different race and hitting some numbers to survive requires skills and yes, it will make your mind twist from time to time . Well, it all depends on the account though.

To those who still think call canter agents are wasting their talents, well that's true, i won't disagree with that, but hey, i get to learn things that will equipt me from venturing on the profession i really like to be part of. Values is part of it. Boosting one's self-esteem is another thing, knowing what's right and wrong and ofcourse not letting anybody bully you around ... ehem, bukod sa mga gullible ha! hehehe

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Not quitting...just moving on...

When one of my good boss rendered her resignation, i asked her almost all the questions she threw at me during the moment i'm giving her my own resignation letter.

"Bakit mo kami iiwan?"
"bakit ka aayaw?"
"San ka pupunta pag nag-resign ka?"
"Why will you quit?"

All she said was, "hindi naman kita iiwan eh...and i'm not quitting, i'm moving on...". I thought it was just one of her silly excuse just for me to stop asking her questions and a hint that she's really decided and not a single soul can stop her.

Yet now, I'm starting to fully understand her. Quitting is only the thing done by those who don't want to face challenges in life; it's true that quitters are losers. They just give up simply because they want to.

Moving on is a different story. One has faced the challenges, got beaten, somehow won the gameand along the process didn't see the purpose of staying and fighting. The reasons one thought of could alter, and find the real value of what one is doing changed along the hardships faced. Then when one moves on, they drop their weapons and get a different weapon to use for another battle.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Bobo state of mind... Lesson for 10/06/08

It scares me a lot if my learning process in life tends to slow down or worst, stopped.

I just learned something na pwedeng magamit araw-araw at hindi na rin kailangan gumastos... allergic na ako sa gastos lately, especially Christmas is fast approaching.
This past few days or let's say months, i did nothing but complain and rant, which i learned that it's something or an attitude that i should never live with.
Madalas kasi, before i try anything, whether in work or simple things sa apartment, ang dami ko ng complains sa buhay...bonggang-bonggang rant na ang inaabot ng bawat umaga or gabi ko araw-araw, take note i haven't done anything yet ha.
With this attitude i have for a month or so, my life gone crazy. Problems just starts to flood in till one day, i, myself is drowned on the issues i created in my life.
Then i got fed up as well. Complaining a lot is a waste of energy and i wasted a lot alady.

This could be a good start...

Then one day, should i say, one night, i decided that it will be a "complain free day" for me and i got pretty surprised by the result. Behind the clouds of customers gone wild, stress in work, thinking of bills to pay and worrying of the salary i'm getting every pay day and other boo-boos, there's a rainbow of small yet positive things life humbly give me: the food i eat on our table..including my lunch at the office, for having the ability to find a job than to bum around, a mother who takes great care of me than being alone...these and more are wonderful things God give me every single day of my life. Though there are still moments i tend to cry and, oh well, hate myself for all the "bobo things" i've done yet i didn't let my day end just like that! Positivity will always be there, one should just learn how to appreciate it.

I know there still a box full of surprises for me, waiting to unravel.

Complain free of a day is such a relief...plus i get to think straight and starts to be rational in every not so good things unexpected along the way... Ü

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Something to laugh at...

****Class Photograph****

The children had all been photograph, and the teacher was trying to persuade them each to buy a copy of the group picture.
"Just think how nice it will be to look at it when you're all growing up and say, 'There's Jennifer; she's lawyer', or 'That's Micheal, he's a doctor'."
A small voice at the back of the room rang out, "And there is the teacher..... she's dead!"

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Bigfish ruin Chicane...LIVE IN MANILA!!!

BIGFISH SUCKS BIG TIME!! I paid for a ticket to watch Chicane perform live but the experience was way different from what expected. I even tried to dress up a little though I know I’ll drop at the end of the party. So these are some disasters that night:
At the door area, people there almost clamor as they want to get their way in, good thing most of them what to keep their cool and not ruin the night even before it started. Funny thing was, since there is no definite place where we can fall in line, like people there are making their own line, when I reached the door, the guard or bouncer told me that we can’t go inside and decided that they should organize the way to check the people stuff! Damn! They should have done it before the people arrived!!!!
The worst among the worst..while Chicane was playing live on stage, there was this really anti-peak technical issues not just once…but 3 times!!! I got sooooooper pissed when they’re singing Stoned in Love and got cut off!! It’s darn sooo bad! Good thing I was able to have something that will make me feel up and high the whole night; and I indeed drop till morning! Ü

Saturday, September 27, 2008




What Marygrace Means



You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!



You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.



You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.



You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.



You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.



You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.

You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.

A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.



You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

HELLO! Ü: Sharing Something About Anger

HELLO! Ü: Sharing Something About Anger
http://grammar.about.com/od/classicessays/a/fullanger07.htm

Sharing Something About Anger

Of Anger
Thomas Fuller (1642)
Anger is one of the sinews of the soul; he that wants it hath a maimed mind, and with Jacob, sinew-shrunk in the hollow of his thigh, must needs halt. Nor is it good to converse with such as cannot be angry, and with the Caspian Sea never ebb nor flow. This anger is either heavenly, when one is offended for God; or hellish, when offended with God and goodness; or earthly, in temporal matters. Which earthly anger, whereof we treat, may also be hellish, if for no cause, no great cause, too hot, or too long.
1. Be not angry with any without a cause. If thou beest, thou must not only, as the proverb saith, be appeased without amends, having neither cost nor damage given thee, but, as our Saviour saith, be in danger of the judgment.
2. Be not mortally angry with any for a venial fault. He will make a strange combustion in the state of his soul, who at the landing of every cockboat sets the beacons on fire. To be angry for every toy debases the worth of thy anger; for he will be angry for anything, who will be angry for nothing.
3. Let not they anger be so hot, but that the most torrid zone thereof may be habitable. Fright not people from thy presence with the terror of thy intolerable impatience. Some men, like a tiled house, are long before they take fire, but once on flame there is no coming near to quench them.
4. Take heed of doing irrevocable acts in thy passion. As the revealing of secrets, which makes thee a bankrupt for society ever after: neither do such things which done once are done for ever, so that no bemoaning can amend them. Samson's hair grew never to be repaired. Wherefore in thy rage make no Persian decree which cannot be reversed or repealed; but rather Polonian laws, which, they say, last but three days: do not in an instant what an age cannot recompense.
5. Anger kept till the next morning, with manna, doth putrefy and corrupt; save that manna not corrupted at all, and anger most of all, kept the next sabbath. St. Paul saith, Let not the sun go down on your wrath; to carry news to the antipodes in another world of thy revengeful nature. Yet let us take the apostle's meaning rather than his words, with all possible speed to depose our passion, not understanding him so literally that we may take leave to be angry till sunset: then might our wrath lengthen with the days; and men in Greenland, where day lasts above a quarter of a year, have plentiful scope of revenge. And as the English, by command from William the Conqueror, always raked up their fire and put out their candles when the curfew bell was rung, let us then also quench all sparks of anger and heat of passion.
6. He that keeps anger long in his bosom, giveth place to the devil. And why should we make room for him, who will crowd in too fast of himself? Heat of passion makes our souls to chap, and the devil creeps in at the crannies; yea, a furious man in his fits may seem possessed with the devil, foams, fumes, tears himself, is deaf and dumb in effect, to hear or speak reason: sometimes swallows, stares, stamps, with fiery eyes and flaming cheeks. Had Narcissus himself seen his own face when he had been angry, he could never have fallen in love with himself.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Cooking Mama

They are absolutely right..my mama and my friends have a point when they told me i have to learn how to cook!Ü

Naisip ko na rin na food is something everybody needs and somthing that is always, always in demand! Kaso lang, i need a tremendous practice for me to convince my friends that they will certainly not die if they eat whatever I cook...well..not right away though.

Plus, gusto ko maging business yun.

Ang dami kong gusto noh?! hehehhe

Saturday, September 20, 2008

*Quicksilver*

It has nothing to do with the Quicksilver line of clothing, it's about camaraderie and loads of fun!

That's what matters most lalo na kung ang mga ginagawa mo sa work ay lethal!! It's been hard for all of us to keep up with our current working environment, things are getting tougher making us really pissed every single shift. Pero kung ang mga kasama mo sa work are crazy wackos, you will be really motivated and find a drive to stand up and flash a true big smile!

Quicksilver...one of the greatest team i've been!

Pero ngaun, memories na lang siya....one of the unforgettable and the best!

Hail to all Quicksilverites!Ü

Marleone: the anime caricatures is great!Ü

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Falling - Fallen


Matagal ko na rin tinago toh sa sarili ko, sometimes i like to give myself a round of applause for acting so good and give myself a knock in the head after that. He's so lucky to be loved secretly!


This sign means a lot!! and hell so funny!!!


hehehehe

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

HELLO! Ü: PIMP

HELLO! Ü: PIMP: http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/pimp
http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/pimp

PIMP

PIMP: Pronunciation: \pimp\ Function: noun Etymology: probably akin to British dialect pimp small bundle of sticks, Middle English pymple papule, German Pimpf young boy, kid, literally, little fart, Pumpf, Pumps fart Date: 1600 : a man who solicits clients for a prostitute
http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/pimp


It all starts with a joke and I always love to play as a pimp to some of my friends. I love to pretend how I would sell them to some rich man and woman for us to earn extra cash, especially when we have to wait a few days before our pay day.

Then a joke turns out to be something not really funny after learning something that happens on the dark street on some parts of Manila. The thing is, teenagers are playing this role, ain’t for fun but for something they thought to be a serious sh*t. It’s a documentary aired by GMA-7 on I-Witness (a documentary show), telling the story how a group of teenagers actually make a living out of pimpin’ there friends, who happened to be the same age as theirs.
As early as 13 years old, they literally sell themselves to earn P30 per customer and I was pretty alarmed to learn that some of them are being sold by their own boyfriends! How funny is that huh?!

I was surprised how these kids’ starts to be in the prostitute industry without really learning the values of why and how do they have to do that. I don’t really see the value of that industry but I respect those people because I know, they do that for a cause: to survive in this jungle called life. Yet those teenagers should be under their parents consent. They should face the battle not by selling their bodies to the perverts lurking on the dark alleys taking advantage of their youth but to enrich their minds for their future. What alarms me the most is they are not being forced to do that, they choose to sell and be sold to other people in return for what?! P30 or roughly about 60 cents (in dollars)!!!

When will these kids learn the value of themselves?

This truly reflects that there’s a lack of support from their parents, the people around them and even the government to awaken their thoughts and provide them what they really need. Teenage years for me is a critical stage because it’s when they usually struggle a lot when in comes with seeking help from their family, learning what they want for their future, and others stuff like conforming with the norms and finding their true selves, plus the fact that they are fragile and at the same time fearless to try anything --- EVERYTHING!!!

I myself can’t do anything to save their ass, but there is something I can do. I have a brother who happened to be a teenager, a niece and nephew that I can help. I can’t be too strict to them or even let them do whatever they want, it’s a mixture of both. Believe me, they wanted to be reprimanded as well and needs tons of reminders! I should know, I’m a teenager once in my life! Ü

Oh well…I don’t feel pity for those kids who sell themselves out of their will because I know time will come they will learn one great lesson in their life … the hardest way! I just hope they will all be saved as early as possible.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

The Signs

I’ve been paranoid lately and I can’t help but embrace this feeling. I always thought that a lot of people actually hate me for being me and I hate myself for thinking how people hate me for being me (sign of paranoia#1). Get the thought?! Bottom line is, yes I’m paranoid!

It all started when a new set of "wave" hit the floor and oh well I’m still here taking in calls. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not hoping to be promoted on this kind of job…well I’ll love to if there will be an additional pay for the additional task will be given to me.

My world is pretty different from my work (sign of paranoia #2). My goals were all set in different directions and I’m lost along the way (sign of paranoia #3). Believe it or not, I’m starting to love it but it doesn’t mean I will not make a way to escape from this sh*t.

The only reason I see why I get paranoid when it comes to my work is because I don’t have my heart on what I’m doing. I don’t believe in what I’m doing making me not believe in myself (sign on paranoia #4).
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!! (sign of paranoia #5)

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

HELLO! Ü: Just sharing

HELLO! Ü: Just sharing
www.myownbusiness.org
own business
saving money
small business

HELLO! Ü: Just sharing

HELLO! Ü: Just sharing
www.myownbusiness.org,
small business

Just sharing

I'm browsing at some topics at the web when i bump into this article. This is kewl specially for those who wanted to start a small business.

HELPING PEOPLE IN TRANSITION
By Phil Holland, Founder, www.myownbusiness.org

More working Americans than ever are victims, or about-to-be victims, of downsizing; also known as "reduction in force", "made redundant" or "your job just went overseas." Scary questions begin to arise: Where do I go from here? How am I going to make my mortgage payment?
For a laid-off worker who doesn't have bright prospects of replacing his or her job, there is a possibility not to be overlooked: why not go into business for yourself? For those still in jobs but fearful of losing them (the signs are usually evident) there is the possibility of starting a moonlight business now, while still working. As Harvey McKay has said, "Find something you love to do and you'll never have to work a day in you life."
Here is a list of top ten do's and don'ts for people in transition, provided by www.myownbusiness.org, a 14-session on-line course conducted as a public service to point out the basic do-s and don'ts for start-up businesses.

TOP TEN DO'S
Begin saving money by living very modestly.
Begin a study on what business would be best for you.
Begin working part-time in the kind of business you would like to start.
Talk to your family about the prospects of starting a business together.
Learn basic accounting.
Learn computer and up-to-the-minute communications tools.
Learn how to operate a web based E-Commerce business including marketing.
Prepare a written business plan for your intended business.
Ask qualified people in your intended business to critique your business plan.
Begin a diet and exercise discipline to build up health and endurance capabilities.

TOP TEN DON'TS
If you're still working at a job, don't quit until your business is in place and running.
If you're still working at a job, don't go into direct competition with your employer.
Don't incur any new financial obligations above basic necessities.
Don't sign any legal business document without your lawyer's approval.
Don't depend on information from franchisers or brokers: do your own research.
Don't be in a hurry: wait for the fat pitch opportunity.
Don't depend on your banker to provide start-up capital.
Don't commit to a concept without proving it first on a small basis.
Don't commit to a business in which you must have the lowest cost to survive.
Don't pick a business that is too high a risk. Go for the 2 foot hurdle.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Nursery for Trees


I got this call from a customer and I find their business very interesting in such a way that they actually help those who want to make most of their land and invest in harvesting good fruits and more! They are heaven sent by those who own farms.

They've been in the industry for 6 years already and still doing great.

Go check out their website and explore their services and you'll be pretty surprised on what more they can provide you!Ü



Saturday, August 30, 2008

BWPR

It’s the time of the week when I get to talk to my boss and learn more from him. Honestly, this is something I always look forward to, aside from the fact that he actually share or should I say we share each other’s ideas on how can make a call a “sales” call, he get to share his wisdom. For somebody who has all the positivity in life run out of it, that person will definitely have the hard time standing up again. All through our coaching time, he gives me reason why I should be motivated in almost anything in life and well, and of course, be motivated at work as well. Take note…HE DIDN’T FORCE ME TO BE MOTIVATED, BUT HELP ME.

This time we talked about humility. If I’m not mistaken, we already discussed this on one of our couching time. It’s being completely thankful for the simplest things God has given and will give me. It’s striving hard but not taking the entire spotlight on your own. It’s appreciating when others did a great job and learn from them. Above all, there is no one to beat but you.
You might be thinking, what the last part has to do with humility….it will teach you to stay grounded after all the blessings given to you. Learning not to compare yourself to others and not judging one person based on the numbers is also the way to be humble.
It’s true and he makes a lot of sense. With all the things I learned in and out of the office is something I should be proud of but not something to brag about. If there is this one person who’s pulling my feet to boredom and despair, it’s no one but me.

All motivation didn’t last long, so if you lost something that motivate you at a certain time, learn to pick up yourself and stand with a proud heart --- this leaves a tattoo in my soul. I got this from my boss.

Weekend is here, and I have to do a lot of thinking about all the things we discussed. I said this before and I will say it again, I’m better than what I’m doing right now, I just need to really prove it myself here in this job I have.

Friday, August 29, 2008

Not Good

It’s when we actually feel we are greater in this world when all sort of negative stuff starts to slap us in our face and that brave heart of us just start to bleed and stop beating for a moment. What use does your armor have? Those gold shields turns to rust. The wall fall into pieces. We are defeated. We shut our doors, restrict the windows from the light of the sun, and there on the dark, we pity ourselves, helpless and weak.

What will we do now?
The breath of an angel of death is suffocating us.
Are we just going to give up and sleep on the wings of death?
What will the undefeated warrior will do?

Doors are locked… darkness prevail on our once hopeful room…

HELLO! Ü: Remembering Opus

HELLO! Ü: Remembering Opus

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Remembering Opus


After a hell like week at work, what's better than spending a night at a bar and drink, smoke and dance the night away! Yet let's face it, not all can really afford to spend 500 bucks for the door charge, another 500 bucks for the drinks and if you feel hungry, that will cost you around another 500 bucks for the food or pika-pika. That's a lot of money and for other employees like me, i usually suffer from "i'm-broke-the-few-days-before-the-salary", so most of the time i just spend my weeknights at home.
Then a friend of mine reminds of a place that i knew already. She actually celebrated her birthday there last saturday and it's a helluva fun fun fun! Opus bar is the place. Opus is a word used to the place and i believe lived to its meaning: a musical composition, written in four movements. It's a Latin term and is the singular form for the word "opera". Wait, don't think of it as a place where you get to listen to some musicians' "concert" where they play piano, violin or cello...ok they are cool, sorry but it's not that sophisticated as you think it is. It's classy on it's own way.
It's located at MetroWalk Ortigas, near the ATM area, hidden behind all the bars and big umbrellas where people are all drunk and start making fun of each other...some are crying out loud and puking like crazy (for krysake! ).
So what's special about the place? The music, the interior and the crew is cool! Not to mention that most of the drinks and food listed on their menu is affordable...you will still have more bucks to buy coffee at Starbucks. :-)
The white interior spice up the ambiance, making the place looks classy. The music they play are r-n-b and house, and the best thing is you can request your song at the DJ's booth, making you dance all night long till your knees give up - talk about customer satisfaction huh?! - . The food is great! What i like the most is the spicy chicken wings!Ü
Viarity of drinks is also available. From beers that is sold 50bucks/bottle to all sort of hard drinks and tequila shots you'll find yourself head-knocked drunk after without burning your wallet.
The place is just not that spacious to occupy a very large number of party people like most of the crowd at Alchemy, Warehouse or Ascend.
Check out the place and just chill..

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Pre - Launch

Nothing's much tiring than convincing yourself how great your day is and that you should love every inch of what you are doing on your job.
I just thought that in 2 years of working, i never really done anything but rant and complain, worst is to disdain even myself for allowing me be stuck in a work station full of American callers waiting to be pleased.
The only reason why i have this kind of mindset is maybe because i know for myself there is more than i can do than this. I never dreamed of working here, but i did this for a cause. I'm not so filthy rich that i can buy a single soul in a wink of an eye.
I once dreamed to be a writer, I want to be an advertiser, i even thought i'll be a filmmaker, a scripwriter and the best and the greatest photographer in the whole world. They said i have what it takes, i said I don't have the guts and doesn't trust myself that much....there goes the negative vibes again!
There's actually the half of the truth: i don't also want to leave. I may be chickened out, of maybe hell scared what's out there, afraid that i will be losing the lifestyle that i'm getting right now, who will not live the life of someone who get to earn much than they are expecting?
Plus the great friends i met here. Let me quote what once my friend told me, "we are not just office friends..." and yes it's true, they are more than what i expect them to be: buddies of all season! They never fail to make me smile and for some moment, they could really be annoying.
Crazy to say but they are my only hope in this world i'm working at, and now, i'm starting to be really fed up and this close of giving up, i thought i have to do something sensible than this. I'm bigger than my job yet i'm letting it eat me.
Another "dealine" for me, and i'm looking forward not to make this another deadline i missed.

Friday, August 15, 2008

Where have all the Good Vibes gone?

My workstation is clutter free. I don’t know if I’ll be happy about it because there are no longer papers, left-over foods (not spoil yet) and pencil and pens I can just grab any time I need to write anything I thought of. I am not even allowed to play music through my AIM radio! Geez…it’s a little bit scary because I’m starting to feel my world are being thrown with a lot of restrictions, it’s giving me a hard time to breathe. I’m really bored with registering every financial software, every single day, 9 hours every NIGHT Mondays to Fridays!!!! Oh yes…I’m about to make a sale, I have stats to pass, based on the sale that I have to generate every call. It’s sounds simple right?! It’s sound really "sisiw"!!! Yet something that doesn’t really motivates you and something where your heart is not at, will be really hard to deal with and it will be ultimately difficult to survive and pass.
I’ve been convincing myself that things will be fine and that I will get used to this kind of work, in the right time and with the right reason; only to find out that I’m not just convincing myself, but I’m already pushing and fooling myself too hard. Questions like, "how long will I stay here?" and "why am I here?" keeps running in my head every time I go to office and I always end up with the same answer, "because of your friends", "because you need money to pay your rent and buy food", "because God knows better than you" and "because you need to face the truth that you are afraid to end up a failure in the work you really want!". It’s getting more complicated every single day. I get more tired, less happiness, more stress, less friends, more thinking, less sleep…what do I get with all these? All sorts of signs of aging start to show up and more stick of cigarettes to consume.
I have nothing left but to hope and pray endlessly. A list of wishful thinking is well kept in my pocket, thinking that in time, one of those will come true. What all of my wishes do come true? Then my life will be clutter free; but then again, will I be happy about it or would I would be more contented if there are some trash that will keep me busy?

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Stuck!!!

Oh dear! There are some entries that I recall because of some unacceptable reasons (yet I consider them acceptable in so many freaking ways).
Here comes rainy season and I’m soaking wet in tears. I dunno but I can’t seem to find any escape to look for a different job. Fears. Endless fears are holding me back.
I know I can do more in this world where the number of sales and issues you close will define you as a human, your space will suddenly be small that it will be hard for you to move and you will find it hard to breathe as time goes by….blame it all on every stick of cigarette sold outside the office.
What am I going to do now???
Plan B…nah…it’s been executed already…
Plan C here I go...

Thursday, July 3, 2008

The Grand Vacation

It's not the ultimate out of town or even the best vacation on a beach or anywhere anybody could dream of but this is something i am really looking forward to after two years working in a not-so-excited (but hell i still stick to) kind of job.
This could be a great reward for me so far, something most of my co-workers wanted to have just to escape on the "fcuk i wanted to die" kind of feeling every single night we go to work. Yet, must admit i have to make some dirty deeds to obtain this but it's one of the most wonderful thing that happened to me!
Three..oh make it four days off!! waaaaaaaah!! a break i'v been waiting for!! I soooo like this!! I go to office but not to work but to make other lives' oh so miserable and happy at the same time. I can go window shopping anytime and spend time with my family. This is the moment where i will savor every night that i will do nothing but to sleep!!!!



Aawww...see, being suspended isn't bad after all!!! ;-)

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

*Program Focus*

OH GEEZ!!! I thought settling down with my family is so easy…
A lot of consequences are starting to show up and have to admit that I’m having a hard time juggling work-responsibilities-and-other-mumbo-jumbos in my life.
All the signs of aging are also pretty obvious…oh well…have no wrinkles on my face yet but I need to cut down on some things for me not to lose track of all the expenses on our place.
I have to bid farewell to Starbucks’ Grande coffees...i need to plot specific date for shopping, and specific amount too!! Instaed of going out to watch movies on a movie house, I will just wait for a copy on a dvd. Only one (consecutive) weekend/s in a month will be allotted for outings and unstoppable gimiks…all I pray is that I’ll be able to stick with all these deals in my life.
I just need to concentrate really hard I think..hehehe

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Cup Noodles, Sex and The City and other Boo-Boos


I hardly had sleep and I blame it to the very humid weather! I woke up took a bath, fixed myself and off to go to the office. It’s been my ritual to eat 30 golden minutes before starting my uber "fun" job, so entered this store and there, at the shelf sitting Beef Cup Noodles, glowing, inviting me, showing off its best look with halo on top of it. So I bought it, went up to my working station and then after taking a bite of my noodles, my world stopped.
I just thought of the movie Sex and the City and how Carrie Bradshaw almost spend her New Year with a cup of noodles on her hand and snows falling at her window pane. I looked at my newly polished nail and thought, this could be the food for feeling lonely people who’s struggling to live and surviving every single day of their life without someone very special to spend with. Snap! Snap! Snap! I still do believe in fairy tales and sparks does exist, even the movie ends well, though it’s not that extravagant with some fireworks and people dancing and singing, yet each of them will have a great beginning. So why am I alone for so long anyways???
I must admit, I’m just afraid. I’m afraid of being in love again and being hurt really bad. I’m afraid to take the risk. I’m so afraid even when "THE GUY-I-like-the-most" approached me, the only word I said was an overwhelming, sounding so stupid "HUH?!" and acted a big time jerk infront of him. I’m afraid to show up in his face again. I’m afraid that my heart might beat fast, knees gets really weak, hands get really cold and well…totally get lost again just him smiling at me. It’s an infinite feeling but I find it really scary.
Oh how I miss the feeling of being in love yet I’m afraid to dwell to that kind of feeling. It’s kinda’ confusing but those who are totally hurt will only understand what I’m going through right now. I’m just patiently waiting for my prince to defeat the dragon and break down the walls around me.
Alright! Reality bites…really hard!! At this point I’m left with my monitor infront of me, my headset neatly placed in my oh well..head..and a cup of noodles in my hand which is…ooops..empty now…
Time to get going and do my job…..
*uh-oh….he’s back…..

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Emotional or Paranoia

For some reasons, I can feel someone’s feeling not really good about my decision leaving my dear apartment and live with my mom and my brother. He may not be furious at all, but in some way, he may feel bad about it. Maybe I have done or said something that will make him treat me coldly.
Few more days before leaving my humble place, while I slowly pack my stuff, I can sense something is not right about the whole scene. Seems like a puzzle I need to figure out since he doesn’t say a word at all. I don’t know if it’s the thought that I have to leave him alone or the part where I should have left him a few weeks ago.
I decided to stay a week or two because I still want to spend time with him, but it’s not what’s happening and with what I’m feeling right now, I’m being pushed to move away. Well, it’s ok, I decided for this to happened anyways. I just have to stand up with my decisions and move on with my life, this time, without my dear housemate…

Friday, May 30, 2008

Whew! To be or Not to be?!

I can’t remember when was the last time I run through this feeling and I have to admit that it is something I really don’t want to see myself at this moment or maybe few years from now. There are so many things I have to do in my life and I still have to make up with all the mistakes I’ve done for myself, and all the craps.
I’ve been in the stage of denial and other sort of lies these past few years of my life. Fears keep on conquering me that I even thought that people that goes to this baloney emotions is just for the sake of having fun. I used to find it really nonsense to accept someone as somebody that you wish to spend with for the rest of their lives, when in reality, till death do us part promises are often written in the sand. It’s just a fairy tale in a little girls dream, that prince charmings are frogs when kissed and happily ever afters are only be found in books.
Yet now, things are turning upside down. My believes are gone with the wind.
After so many years, this is the only time where, again, I’m starting to feel something I fear to feel. Someone makes my heart beat really fast, and it’s true indeed that wobbling knees does happened. I felt all this when I saw him…
Can this be it???

Thursday, May 22, 2008

There Oh!Ü



I started making my own scrapbook! Finally after a few months of thinking whether I’ll make or leave my pictures on my website, I finally decided to compile them and make a scrapbook! I’ll be needing to do some brief research on how things to be done properly, like what kind of materials to use, from printing my pictures, kind of papers to use, trinkets to place on each pages, themes, format, designs even to the sticky-glue..or whatever it is that will make my stuff be in its proper places!
I thought it’s easy, only to find out that it’s not! Hahaha
Being "maarte" takes a lot of effort! Whew! Yet it’s ok, it’s my stress reliever as well and a good past time.
When everything is working and looking fine already, I’ll post it here and share it with you guys! Ü




Saturday, May 17, 2008

AN OPEN ADVICE ABOUT CAREER DECISIONS

I just want to share this to you guys. It's a forwarded mail i recieved and this makes lots of sense for those who are dying to quit thier jobs for whatever reason:


AN OPEN ADVICE ABOUT CAREER DECISIONS
Several of my staff has approached me lately about their career decisions. I really appreciate my staff opening up to me. It is quite reassuring to know that they're still having second thoughts about leaving. Here is part of the email I sent to a "confused" staff: I have worked for more than 5 companies already so I guess you might be correct in saying I have had considerable experience about leaving and moving on. I will not stop you nor tell you to leave, though of course it will be better if you stay. In any career decision, leaving or staying I believe, based from my personal experiences and as an HR professional, should only be done for the right reasons.For one, you shouldn't leave because you don't like several people in the company, nor should you stay because of the friends you have made here. At the end of the day, it is your life. Your friends or "enemies" should not make or break your career. If you let them be the deciding factor, then maybe you should think twice. You are the craftsman of your fate and the captain of your ship. Captain Hook shouldn't be one of your worries!Do not leave nor stay because of the "brand" of your company. If that was the case, I would have rushed off and sign my JO in "C"! Ask yourself whether you want to be a big fish in a small pond or a small fish in a bigger pond. Know your priorities. Only you can answer that. Do not leave the company because you're so damn frustrated about the way things are being run, or stay because you have this "messianic complex" that you can change things overnight. Be realistic about thethings.
Learn to accept that there is no perfect company. Be accepting that change is a slow and painful process at times and be thankful that you realize and act on things that can be changed and improved. Definitely, do not leave or stay just because your parents want you to. I know I am advocating obedience to parents but again, we are talking about YOUR career. But learn to value their wisdom and discern well. Money isn't everything. The package being offered now might be better but look at the long-term prospects. Do not leave or stay just solely on the compensation package. Look for growth prospects and review their career plans for you. Your immediate gains today might actually be a loss a few years from now if you do the Math.Boredom is another challenge all professionals are faced with during lull periods in their career. Do not leave because you have become sobored with your job. Do not stay either because you want things as they are. Change is inevitable in any organization. Talk to your boss. Ask for more responsibilities or other tasks if you're bored. Enroll in a special course. If you're satisfied with the status quo and is just waiting for retirement hoping things will stay the same, you're in for a big disappointment - either you will be forced to change or you will be forced to leave. Be ready before that time comes. Boredom or complacency is aperennial battle most professionals have to deal with. Arm yourself with creativity everyday!Tonight I suggest you rest well. Sit still and listen to what He is saying. PRAY. I have always made my career decisions through His guidance. He was and still is my Career Adviser/Talent Manager. Your work, our work, is a vocation. He knows us more than we know ourselves so trust Him for whatever plans He has for you. You can never go wrong.

HELLO! Ü: First stage to Adulthood...

HELLO! Ü: First stage to Adulthood...

First stage to Adulthood...

A part of me is kinda’ excited and another part is skeptic. Oh geez…few more hours and my plans will be then executed. How well it will go through I have no freaking idea!!
It’s a risk and at this point I’m just hoping the man I resent the most will not show up on our doorstep and just wreck every little things I’ll do for the two person I love the most. What the creep, I’m dying to show everybody around me that I will be able to do things on my own! At this very moment as I compose this blog, lots’a thoughts running in my head! No matter how hard I try to unpack and throw all the negative baggage off my head, they just keep on squeezing their way in!
My family and I will start from scratch! As in all my salary will be allotted to our expenses in our food, apartment bills, bills, bills, bills and more bills!!! I kinda’ like the thought of it because it makes me feel more grown up. Less gimiks with friends, less night-outs and outings! Less thoughts about just myself and it’s like a practice for the future when I’m about to start my own family…oh yes I even thought of having a family of my own! Wahahahhaa!!
When we had the place fixed and everything is going smoothly, I’ll take a picture of our apartment. It’s not that classy, but it’s neat though. I guess that’s what we needed since we’re just starting.
Wooohooo!! God Bless Us!!!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Thinking Positive


I'm about to make a decision that will change my life forever. At this moment, i just want to drench my problems away with alcohol..something that will make me forget all the pain I'm feeling and about to face. I sacrificed almost everything: my singlehood, my career, the people who raised me are just some on my list. I'm even stuck on a job I never really see myself doing just for me to be with my love ones..my mom and my brother.
I'm having the freedom of doing what i want: chilling out with my friends, buying things I never had, going to places i've never been and partying till five in the morning. I'm doing all these because i know, sooner or later, all these will end. My money and time are just for myself, and now is the time to share it with my "family". I'm going to do this though I'm uncertain if i'll be able to make it in the end; though she really didn't raised me as what all mothers should do, I want to do my part as what a daughter should to her parents: FACE RESPONSIBILITIES WITH ALL GUTS. Though my brother hardly knew me at all and vice versa, I still want to play the role of a big sister that he can always lean on and pick a fight with.
All my life i'm facing expectations and unbearable rejections. I was able to give myself a break for almost a year. Now, I'm going to embrace more of what i have right now. My road is no longer leading on my own accord; it all leads to where I will see them happy. I don't want to break my promise to my mom. I want to show her that I'm far way better than she thought I am. She never believed in me..I knew it, for if she did she will hold on to the promise I made her 16 years ago, when i was in grade school, where I expect only us will be together, not letting go of our dreams..until she gave up first. She left me on my relatives care, let them groom me, while she decided to live with a man that make her life a living hell.
People around me, especially my relatives, stops me from doing this, but I'm taking the risk. I have a promise to keep, one thing my mom never did. Honestly, I have lots of hesitations in mind, so many what-if's, negativities and other unnecessary blah blah. If any of them ruin my plans, my life will be ruined too. Yet i know God will never abandon me. If i run out of food to eat, courage, faith, hope, will to stand and i wasn't able to feel love and care as what i've shown them, it's ok, God will never abandon me. God will provide me bunch of those. Nothing to lose though..

HELLO! Ü: To Those Who Play Favoritisms...

HELLO! Ü: To Those Who Play Favoritisms...

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

To Those Who Play Favoritisms...


To whom it may concern:
I would like to give you a piece of what i have in mind as i start to feel a little disappointed with what you make me feel as a person.
I find it overwhelming when you give me words of encouragement, push me to do things that you know i'm good at, bring out the best in me and make me see good things in a positive way. You make my world an easy place to live in, you make things reachable within my hands, you serve as my bridge and you make hard businesses easy to deal with. It's a life to live in my end!
Yet lately, i just realized that everything is turning to a big mistake. Things that some people tell behind me are not just a mere fuzz but a reality i've been ignoring for a long time. Yes you always praise what i do, you grant my request while you know and i know someone deserves more of what i have right now, but to be honest, after getting what i want, i don't feel true happiness within. Your great words gets inside of my system, to the point it eats my humble side, while i feed my ego and pride to its limit. You keep on bringing the best in me though i don't feel like doing it. You build my bridge, as well as the road i take when i should be the one to decide what road to take and i should learn as well how my bridge should be made of. I'm overwhelmed but i'm unfamiliar with the world i'm into. I'm starting to be unfair...we are starting to be rudely unfair.
I want this to end. I want to make and leave my own footprints and not follow someone else. I want to make decisions on my own. I want to hear the truth, even though it's negative and it may hurt, atleast it teaches me not to be arrogant, listen and consider other person's idea and put my ego and pride to its proper places. I just realised i'm not really having fun at all. I'm done with this dog-eat-dog world. I'm letting go of this string that attaches me to you.
Nevertheless, I still thank you for every thing that you've done. In some ways, you were able to bring out the best in me. You believe in me more that i do to myself. I thank you for sharing funny moments with me...especially if you want to make fun with others.
I guess this is it for us. Time is so precious that it's your turn to be thankful for someone like me gave you such one important thing like that.

Goodbye...
Your Favorite "student"

Saturday, May 10, 2008

The E at the Parteee


It was the time of my life where I get to meet more people and somehow be part of their lives. Things are pretty complicated: work, family, friends like learning to conform and be part of their "circle", money, issue of acceptance, pressures, expectations and yes…even singles thing like what shade of lipstick to wear before going to the office. For some it’s more complicated if you are a single parent or if you have a family at a younger age. Bottom line is: work really drains all the energy I have stored since birth.
It’s true though when they say life gets really stressful when you reach 20 and each individual have their own ways to relief stress or depressions. Me and my friends usually go out for a drink, chill at a coffee shop, do some shopping, dine at a fine restaurant (for some occasions though) and the best part of it party at a bar every weekend!
When I say party, music and booze is not enough. Some "take home" partners with them and some do "pop and roll". It’s when "e" or more known as ecstasy was introduced to me. I thought it’s something not being blatantly used in public places like bar, but like cocaine, methamphetamine aka shabu, or cannabis, but like the street kids sharing a bottle of rubber cement, this "kids" I’m with is getting high and low with the ecstasy they took.
Since high school, I was educated what these drugs are and the only effect I knew was it’s bad for my health and that’s it! The drugs and other scientific terms are enough to scare me from using it and somehow patronize it like others did. I know what cocaine, cannabis and the ever famous methamphetamine is, but what is really an ecstasy? Why there are some who are being hooked up to these fancy looking pills?
Some of my friends are really hooked up to it and some try it just for the sake of knowing how it feels. So how does it really feel? What makes a good tab from a bad tab? Is it true that once you pop, you actually "roll"?! Well, let me share the basic stuff. Ecstasy is also known as MDMA or methylenedioxymethamphetamine…whew! It’s a good word to play with...just practice! It is complicated like its name. Though its package is so comely and looks "safe", it’s more like a devil in angel’s wings that sure know how to confuse and devastate ones nervous system. It actually comes in different sizes, colors, logo and region; it varies on the contents one tab consists of as well.
Ecstasy has so many hallucination effects as well. One thing that it (may) differ from the other drugs is the one who take it feels "good" about everything around them. Like one may feel hugging someone, dancing all night long, anything that touches their skin’s feels smooth and other crazy stuff like that.
SO, what really is an ecstasy?!?! Aside from it can make your senses up all night..or even for few days, can cause a feelings of euphoria, boosts once sex drive and makes you feel "good" at all times, it can also have a great negative effects as well…just like any drugs have! Tabs have great effects towards once emotions. Some of the major negative effects a person can get by a frequent tabs users are: decrease appetite, urinary retention, high heart rate, high blood pressure, short – term memory lapses, lockjaw, hyperthermia, dehydration and hyponatremia…well, there’s lots of them but I can only name few.
According to some people I talked to, who do take "e", it is their stress reliever, an escape from the all craps in their lives, helps them boost their self esteem, to "be part of a group and be accepted" and simply to try it and have fun, specially when you pop it on a rave party or simply do it on a house party with some friendly friends around. For them, it’s a cardinal rule not to pop and reach the peak alone for you’ll never know how it feels to have a great crowd around or the feeling that someone is taking care of you…….

Jammin at Ewood


Somehow there is no guilt inside me, after choosing to watch a gig than be at work on time. It might shows how unprofessional I have been but I’ve chosen to do this than burn and drag myself to work.
Now i can start my "day" somehow right with sales or no sales, at least i had a great time.
This past few days my mindset wasn't as worst as what i have right now, like i always have to find a reason to be at work....on time...
This day, after watching gigs at eastwood center plaza, it suddenly gives me a drive to take in calls and for whatever reason, the sloppy old me is gone.
Question is how long will this "good attitude" be up to?! Ü

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Starting again...


Staying at the office is sooo boring. Good thing an officemate/friend introduced me to creating a blog..for the second time.
I knew i already created an account here and posted some nonsense stuff that i need to pull out my brain or it will wreck it! yet i put all those information on a small keepsake box and bury it six feet below the ground..those things aren't even good to remember..just the lessons i've learned from it are the things i carry with me always.
So, let's see...
what will happend to me...
where this thigamajigs will lead me...
when will i stay "wrecked"...


ciao.♥
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