I hardly had sleep and I blame it to the very humid weather! I woke up took a bath, fixed myself and off to go to the office. It’s been my ritual to eat 30 golden minutes before starting my uber "fun" job, so entered this store and there, at the shelf sitting Beef Cup Noodles, glowing, inviting me, showing off its best look with halo on top of it. So I bought it, went up to my working station and then after taking a bite of my noodles, my world stopped.
I just thought of the movie Sex and the City and how Carrie Bradshaw almost spend her New Year with a cup of noodles on her hand and snows falling at her window pane. I looked at my newly polished nail and thought, this could be the food for feeling lonely people who’s struggling to live and surviving every single day of their life without someone very special to spend with. Snap! Snap! Snap! I still do believe in fairy tales and sparks does exist, even the movie ends well, though it’s not that extravagant with some fireworks and people dancing and singing, yet each of them will have a great beginning. So why am I alone for so long anyways???
I must admit, I’m just afraid. I’m afraid of being in love again and being hurt really bad. I’m afraid to take the risk. I’m so afraid even when "THE GUY-I-like-the-most" approached me, the only word I said was an overwhelming, sounding so stupid "HUH?!" and acted a big time jerk infront of him. I’m afraid to show up in his face again. I’m afraid that my heart might beat fast, knees gets really weak, hands get really cold and well…totally get lost again just him smiling at me. It’s an infinite feeling but I find it really scary.
Oh how I miss the feeling of being in love yet I’m afraid to dwell to that kind of feeling. It’s kinda’ confusing but those who are totally hurt will only understand what I’m going through right now. I’m just patiently waiting for my prince to defeat the dragon and break down the walls around me.
Alright! Reality bites…really hard!! At this point I’m left with my monitor infront of me, my headset neatly placed in my oh well..head..and a cup of noodles in my hand which is…ooops..empty now…
Time to get going and do my job…..
*uh-oh….he’s back…..
I just thought of the movie Sex and the City and how Carrie Bradshaw almost spend her New Year with a cup of noodles on her hand and snows falling at her window pane. I looked at my newly polished nail and thought, this could be the food for feeling lonely people who’s struggling to live and surviving every single day of their life without someone very special to spend with. Snap! Snap! Snap! I still do believe in fairy tales and sparks does exist, even the movie ends well, though it’s not that extravagant with some fireworks and people dancing and singing, yet each of them will have a great beginning. So why am I alone for so long anyways???
I must admit, I’m just afraid. I’m afraid of being in love again and being hurt really bad. I’m afraid to take the risk. I’m so afraid even when "THE GUY-I-like-the-most" approached me, the only word I said was an overwhelming, sounding so stupid "HUH?!" and acted a big time jerk infront of him. I’m afraid to show up in his face again. I’m afraid that my heart might beat fast, knees gets really weak, hands get really cold and well…totally get lost again just him smiling at me. It’s an infinite feeling but I find it really scary.
Oh how I miss the feeling of being in love yet I’m afraid to dwell to that kind of feeling. It’s kinda’ confusing but those who are totally hurt will only understand what I’m going through right now. I’m just patiently waiting for my prince to defeat the dragon and break down the walls around me.
Alright! Reality bites…really hard!! At this point I’m left with my monitor infront of me, my headset neatly placed in my oh well..head..and a cup of noodles in my hand which is…ooops..empty now…
Time to get going and do my job…..
*uh-oh….he’s back…..
