Monday, January 24, 2011
Sentimental me...
Love... why is it hard to find you?
I have to go through series of rejections and i have to do the same..reject their feign love. Why is it hard to love and be loved in return? why does fate have to be tough on me?
All these are like a game; a game i don't know if i can still achieve victory over to. So tricky! I just can't master the game or maybe i just don't know how to play my cards really damn well. I guess, playing isn't really my thing; I need the real deal. It's sickening to kiss frogs who never turned into the Prince i'm searching for.
Where are you?
Just where the hell are you?
All i wanted is to find this guy who's actions speaks louder than words. I need a guy who will not promise me his life, give me sweet nothings and cuddles me everyday. I need someone who's willing to share their part of them to me, the way i would love to share a part of me to him. Sweet pick-up lines are funny but i'm going crazy over it. It's making me go berserk! All the pain and disappointments makes me want to give up, thinking that maybe L-O-V-E isn't just a thing for me.
I want to let go of this feeling of waiting. I'm tired of it. I'm tired being fooled, acting like a fool and pretending to be stupid hoping that through this i'll find "him". Years of waiting, yet no one - not a single man's soul wants me in their life.
Love...do i really have to exert effort to find you?
I'm starting to prepare myself for being alone. But how ready am i? Will this be for the rest of my mortal life? What if no one is really meant for me? No one is ever worth the pain...the wait...someone's worth of having me? I'm sick of feeling this way...
Is it goodbye love for me now?
I have to go through series of rejections and i have to do the same..reject their feign love. Why is it hard to love and be loved in return? why does fate have to be tough on me?
All these are like a game; a game i don't know if i can still achieve victory over to. So tricky! I just can't master the game or maybe i just don't know how to play my cards really damn well. I guess, playing isn't really my thing; I need the real deal. It's sickening to kiss frogs who never turned into the Prince i'm searching for.
Where are you?
Just where the hell are you?
All i wanted is to find this guy who's actions speaks louder than words. I need a guy who will not promise me his life, give me sweet nothings and cuddles me everyday. I need someone who's willing to share their part of them to me, the way i would love to share a part of me to him. Sweet pick-up lines are funny but i'm going crazy over it. It's making me go berserk! All the pain and disappointments makes me want to give up, thinking that maybe L-O-V-E isn't just a thing for me.
I want to let go of this feeling of waiting. I'm tired of it. I'm tired being fooled, acting like a fool and pretending to be stupid hoping that through this i'll find "him". Years of waiting, yet no one - not a single man's soul wants me in their life.
Love...do i really have to exert effort to find you?
I'm starting to prepare myself for being alone. But how ready am i? Will this be for the rest of my mortal life? What if no one is really meant for me? No one is ever worth the pain...the wait...someone's worth of having me? I'm sick of feeling this way...
Is it goodbye love for me now?
Saturday, January 1, 2011
1-1-11
Fireworks are over, champagne glass are empty and stomachs are full.
I've celebrated New Year with my family and it was always fun as expected. This is my first entry for the year, and i decided to scrap off my new year's resolutions and well have a more concrete plan that will sure make 2011 a better year for me.
Let me just start this year with a prayer.
Dear Lord,
I can't ask anything for more, because you do still provide me all my needs and knows that there are right time to get what i want.
I want to thank you for all the blessings you've given me and my family last year, and today, the first day of the year, i would like to thank you for more blessings i know you'll generously provide us. Thanks for the love and happiness, tears and pain, lessons learned and failed to learn, for my family and friends, for my job i'm still learning to appreciate and love, and for all other wonderful things you've given me.
Sorry if i fail you as a child. Sorry for making myself unfortunate and if if sometimes i fail to appreciate all the small things that you've given me. I apologize most for disappointing you. I can't promise you anything, but i will try to follow you as what i know i should do.
This year, there are only few things i ask, prosperous year and great health for my family and more love for me.
Thank you Lord.
Amen
I've celebrated New Year with my family and it was always fun as expected. This is my first entry for the year, and i decided to scrap off my new year's resolutions and well have a more concrete plan that will sure make 2011 a better year for me.
Let me just start this year with a prayer.
Dear Lord,
I can't ask anything for more, because you do still provide me all my needs and knows that there are right time to get what i want.
I want to thank you for all the blessings you've given me and my family last year, and today, the first day of the year, i would like to thank you for more blessings i know you'll generously provide us. Thanks for the love and happiness, tears and pain, lessons learned and failed to learn, for my family and friends, for my job i'm still learning to appreciate and love, and for all other wonderful things you've given me.
Sorry if i fail you as a child. Sorry for making myself unfortunate and if if sometimes i fail to appreciate all the small things that you've given me. I apologize most for disappointing you. I can't promise you anything, but i will try to follow you as what i know i should do.
This year, there are only few things i ask, prosperous year and great health for my family and more love for me.
Thank you Lord.
Amen
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