Mushiness on a rainy day...

There were lots of times where we always wanted someone to love us back the way we love them. Truth is it never really happened. We exert effort, waste time waiting for them to take us seriously, and lose our mind only find it’s not worth everything. There were times, we thought we already have what we wanted and badly needed, only to find, that person still can’t fill the empty half of us. We tend to ruin something beautifully created by a happy couple thinking that they already found happiness together and it’s not really that bad to be the third character on their love story. We take the risk of telling someone what we feel, without thinking what the consequences are and sometimes we even lose what we wish to have forever. We risk losing self respect to please the one we love. We forgot the real meaning of "sorry", sacrifice, pride, fidelity, selflessness and love. We take the forbidden risk just to be loved.

What’s the whole point on this? It’s a reality check, that before we long for someone to love us back, we have to love ourselves first. This might be too cliché or so passé but that’s the only time where nothing will be gone to waste. They can hurt us, leave us crying and so helpless, but they can’t take away the things we have learned, even our self respect. When we find love within us, we can easily forgive ourselves from making all the mess we made, we don’t blame others or even ourselves when we failed and we accept that all the risk that we take is all worth it. It would be easy to get back love in return, even if it’s not from someone we thought would love us back. We don’t give way for people to abuse us because we know we deserve better than to suffer and live behind ones lies. No matter how hard they try to pull us down, we have this very courageous way of getting back on our feet, dust ourselves off and move on and take the risk to love again with all the lessons we learned on our side. We get sad but we don’t get depressed, simply because we know we’re better of than hiding inside a dark room and live in misery. That’s when we realize how wonderful life is and how blessed we are with having our family to give us unconditional love and friends who’s always there to get us back to reality and never fail to make our lives full of fun.

We all deserve to have someone we love and will love us back but we don’t live in a life full of fantasy. One may be lucky enough to find their other half, but it’s not pure luck at all, they found their true one love because they learned to appreciate themselves first. We have to start with ourselves and that’s the only risk where we can surely win.