I thought i thought of something...

After a few weeks, i'm back. There are some things in my mind that just stagnate and i let it be that way...my bad.

What i feel right now is somehow annoying and it's everything of anything!

I dont want my job but i have no choice but to keep it; even my reasons for staying aren't enough to keep me still making me think of other more reasons to stay, funny is i never run out of it and even the most nonsense one mark a point for me...pathetic....

Pathetic and i know i am but i don't mind at all. Even the most luckiest person in world find his or herself pathetic at one point of his or her life. It makes me more human.

What makes me more of a human are the happiness and endless pain. It's where i get to learn more things; so who says after earning a degree, a masters or the highest recognition of learning, someone really has to stop from learning. If one does, that's the most nastiest thing ever!

It's nasty when employees tend to kiss their employers' ass thinking they will be promoted without doing less and more ass kissing. Who ever thought of that, inventented that or came up with that, definetely has nothing in his life right now but riches that can be taken away from him in a snap...hello!!! GOD DO EXIST!!

What made me say that God exist? If you believe that someone out there made that computer you're using right now, then think who made you're heart that's beating right now...who made you're parent's heart and your parent's parent's heart?

Heart could be the most sensitive part of once body. Do i really need to be scientific here?? i mean, even, "the rock" once had a broken heart and made him cry.

Cry...cry...that's all left for me to do at the end of every day...hais.

5 Things You Need To Know About Twilight

I'm not a big fan of Twilight series but i just saw this review about the book and movie...natuwa ako..yun lang..hehe..share ko lang sa inio...

href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5CGuest%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtml1%5C01%5Cclip_editdata.mso">By Graeme McMillan, 12:00PM Sun Nov 9 2008, 18,812 views

Love it or hate it - and judging by your comments, most of you are in the latter camp - there's no escaping the fact that Twilight is already one of the most anticipated movies of the year, and may become one of the most successful, as well. Because we know that you're all about keeping up with the zeitgeist, we're giving you five things you need to know about the emo vampire series that's already taken over bookstores, MySpace, and the heart of your little sister.

1: The Books Are Popular. Very Popular.
Sure, we're not talking Harry Potter levels yet - despite the many comparisons that Twilight has drawn to the wizarding series, mostly because it's a popular young adult series of novels that's transcended its target audience - but 17 million book sales in the three years since the release of the first book is still nothing to be sneezed at, and the books have collectively topped the New York Times bestseller list for close to a year. Face it; more people have read this than anything that inspired Iron Man.

Not to put to much pressure on the movie, but

people are already writing about the way in which Twilight The Movie unites women of all ages in their lust for the franchise:

Let me introduce you to one of the most powerful new groups in Hollywood. It's not a group of actors, producers or directors. It's the rather interesting hybrid demographic who are getting their knickers in a twist over Twilight, due to be released in the UK next month... Teenage girls, young female adults and their mums converged at the Twilight conference at Comic-Con back in July, filling Hall H to capacity and rupturing tonsils at the appearance of their hunkalicious hero.

Believe me, this demographic is out there. They just don't have a name yet.

They're naming themselves, however; there are fansites called Twilight Moms (and its related site, Twilight-Teens - and also Twilight20somethings, just in case you don't fit into either of the previous two) as well as Team Jacob, Team Edward, Team Switzerland and even Team Twilightist amongst many others out there, each one a demonstration of obsession with the novels' familiar tale of a boy, a girl and the unspoken love that dare not speak its name.

2: The Books Aren't Very Good.
Critical reception to Twilight, the first book in the series was marginally positive (Booklist's "There are some flaws here—a plot that could have been tightened, an overreliance on adjectives and adverbs to bolster dialogue—but this dark romance seeps into the soul" being essentially the tenor of most mainstream reviews), but each successive book received poorer reviews, with Breaking Dawn, the final book getting drubbings from the LA Time's ("The problem is Stephenie Meyer is no J.K. Rowling... We would have much preferred the whole thing to end in book three, "Eclipse," with yes, some happiness for Bella, but also some angst, some heartbreak, and a dark, ominous future looming"), Publisher's Weekly ("[G]randeur is out. This isn't about happy endings; it's about gratification") and Entertainment Weekly("[You'll] abruptly lose all patience when... Meyer takes her supernatural love story several bizarre steps too far"). We may be biased, but sister site Jezebel came up with our favorite review:

It's 754 pages long, its heroine's dominant personality trait is low self-esteem, and, as Amazon reviewer Eventide points out, nobody really has to give up anything. Even the tedium of immortality is glossed over — these vampires just keep busy with their hobbies. If I had an eternity to read, I still might never pick up this book again.

3: The Writer Can Be A Bit Of A Prima Donna.
Although the Twilight series officially finished with the fourth book, Breaking Dawn, there was a fifth book planned, Midnight Sun, that would've retold the events of the first book from the hero's perspective. But then a first draft of the book's opening appeared online, and author Stephenie Meyer posted this response on her website:

I did not want my readers to experience Midnight Sun before it was completed, edited and published. I think it is important for everybody to understand that what happened was a huge violation of my rights as an author, not to mention me as a human being... So where does this leave Midnight Sun? My first feeling was that there was no way to continue. Writing isn't like math; in math, two plus two always equals four no matter what your mood is like. With writing, the way you feel changes everything. If I tried to write Midnight Sun now, in my current frame of mind, James would probably win and all the Cullens would die, which wouldn't dovetail too well with the original story. In any case, I feel too sad about what has happened to continue working on Midnight Sun, and so it is on hold indefinitely.

(She's since recanted slightly, telling Entertainment Weekly that "[t]he funny thing about that statement is I didn't actually write the majority of it... in the end only the one or two sentences written by me seem really jarring [compared with everything else], and people didn't get that there was sort of a joke in there." Midnight Sun, however, is still on hold.)

Nonetheless, she's kept a tight hold on the movie, only agreeing to the project in the first place when teeth size met her approval, and having final say on casting and the length and passion of final clinches. "It's been good for me just in general to have to speak up because I am so invested in this," she's explained.

4: VINOs: Vampires In Name Only.
The vampires in the Twilight books don't have elongated teeth, and they have no problem going out in daytime in their Pacific Northwest hometown, because it's so foggy (I can't tell if that's actually funny or just a kind of crappy dodge). They also, as almost every example of vampire fiction since, what, Anne Rice's Interview With A Vampire (or maybe Marilyn Ross' Barnabas Collins?), are tragic souls afflicted by a curse that don't really want to sink their teeth into humanity - and so, they eat animals and go on "hunting trips" to take care of their bloodlust. Yes, it's the Pacific Northwest Hipster Rural Lifestyle turned goth. Whatever happened to the good old days of Nosferatu and vampires who were unafraid to be vampires? I mean, if they have his pallor, why can't they have his mannerisms?

5: Remember The Golden Compass.
Summit Pictures, the studio behind the movie

may be nervous about saying that they've got a hit on their hands ahead of the movie's release,

but the movie is estimated to make somewhere between $20million and $50million in its first weekend, depending on how optimistic your sources are. It's worth remembering the fate of The Golden Compass, however; last year's "The New Harry Potter" had a similar amount of buzz pre-release, and a similarly impressive opening weekend... before audiences realized that the movies didn't live up to the books. Ultimately, the movie wasn't successful enough to warrant filming the second of the three His Dark Materials novels. The same thing may happen to Twilight. The figure to keep in mind is rumored to be $150 million; if Twilight makes less than that, you can forget about seeing New Moon, Eclipse or Breaking Dawn in theaters anytime soon. We can only hope.

Twilight is released in theaters November 21st.

Shifting!!

For whatever reasons, i become more aware of our society this past few days.

I dunno if it's something to do with being assigned on a morning shift and a chance to see "my boyfriends" that makes me mo reactive to whatever that's happening right now. Or maybe I should blame Mike Enriquez for this!

I start to give comments and shout out my opinion to whatever i see on news...my mama could've killed me though if i wasn't her daughter!

Yet i'm starting to like whatever i'm going through right now. I just hope i'll be more proactive than reactive though....mas nakatulong pa siguro ako.hehehe

Sniff...Sniff..

Sick...

I'm feeling really sick right now because of my colds!

It seems endless for it's been 4 days already and it's ruining my mood...

Thanksgiving just ended yet here i'am, my nose is so prepared for Christmas.

Back-off Rudolf...you're nose ain't so red as mine!Ü

A night with Armin...

i got "hooked" but not that much.

it was one of the night i've been looking forward to and spending money for that party(ee) isn't bad at all....some people even said it's sulit!

yes i actually decided to go to that event than spend a night at the office. Darn i wouldn't want to miss this!

I forgot some details of the event but all i remember is i'm dancing like crazy, didn't care much of people around me and following the beat of Armin's music.

Armin van Buuren...i want you back!!! hehehe

Bakc @ 1

5 more weeks and i'm almost ready to face hell.

I decided not to pursue the "career" i have (if there's any) at the LOB we have at Libis. Why? Because first, i don't see career growth for me and second I don't have "life" there!
Boredom eats my system every single day, or should i say night no matter how hard i try to boost myself and think of happy thoughts (not the same happy thoughts most guys think of, somebody just told me something about it and...errr...that's only for ma-L people! hehehe), making me unproductive and find ways to escape this bullcraps.

I love my boss though...some of them...and the people i work with...because we have the same
sentiments.

Resigning is always the first option i have, but something's holding me back...

I'm now using my friends to stay in this industry, then the rest will be history...I love my friends who allow me to use them though! hhehehehe

Now i'm having 7weeks training on a particular program i'm very much aware of, a program i've been with and learned so much in, a program where i cried, learned to love and never loved in return. I'm like a freshie!!! hehehehe

How long will i stay here?
I don't know...I'll leave it all to God!

Anything Goes

It’s when I’m on the deepest of all deep that I appreciate myself as a human.
The tears, frown, pain….all these makes me human.
All the imperfections in life epitomize my own mirror.
I can’t do something perfect like what some people expect me to be. I’m doing a good job at the moment I didn’t expect myself to have an outcome of something good as they said; then I walked away! I didn’t see it that way…I never did anyhow.

Call me manhid…stupida…I don’t freaking care!

Careless…that’s the state of mind I have at this moment. I don’t want to think of what people around me will say or think of. Let them blabber behind me…they can even kiss my ass and I don’t freaking mind.

I’m busy right now. Busy burning my lungs, busy drinking till I drop, busy updating my online accounts, busy watching t.v., busy taking a nap/sleeping at the office and busy thinking when will I be seriously busy.

*buzzzz*