Dreamer's list

Changes took place and it shook my comfort zone.

This is just one of those boring days i have to face, for me to earn a little cash and must admit, i know that it will take me some time to cope with the situation. Since killing time has been my hobby for the past few days, there's a lot of things going on my mind. Bad and good but never naughty..sweet and sometimes that i have to snap back to reality and face the real deal.
I just came out with the list i usually think of and questions in my mind i try to answer on my own.
1. What would I be like if I'm working on an advertising firm?
2. Me working on a photoshoot as a photographer on a popular magazine...like nat geo..hehehe
3. I'm part of a band..playing drums or lead guitar.
4. What if me and "shaider" are together...and his wife find out about it?!?!
5. I'm driving my own customized Eclipse.
6. Directing my own Indie Film.
7. Someone singing "Hard to Believe" (Eheads) for me.
8. Me singing "I Miss You" (incubus) to someone.
9. I'm undergoing to a MAJOR make-over.
10. Designing my own house.
11. If I am to manage a business what would it be??
12. Kicking one of the boss's ass.
13. Repramand the agent I'm rating

oh well..here are just some on my list....
as much as i want to elaborate more about this, it will take some more time for me to do so. Each of them have thier own story and most of them doesn't have an ending yet. Oh well.. guess day dreaming is something most people do when they are usually stuck on a traffic.Ü

Living a Happy Ending (??)

I do hope that life is as easy as finding something that will make you happy and deciding to live with it and a happily ever after story goes on.

Life is not really a fairy tale story that we used to read and dreamed of when we're still young.OH c'mon! i know you learned about that the day your first love broke your heart! Prince charmings don't just come your way, rescue you from distress and sweep you off your feet. Fact is, you have to wait or find for the right one and worst is chase someone you know will never love you in return.

Castles isn't as good as what Disney Land have. It wasn't extravagant, dancing, singing, and laying your head on the sand while watching the stars dance the night away; i guess that's why you have to pay for entrance fee if you want to experience a fairy tale like life. snap snap!! Life is NOT just like that.

I guess what most of the details i missed are the adventures of the characters for them to reach their happy ending.

It's no fun to be poisoned by your stepmother...it's not fun to be poisoned by anybody! It's not fun to lose a pretty glass shoe, to get lost in the woods, to kiss a frog, to be treated badly by your stepsisters, or for someone to attempt stabbing you at your back.
It's true that life isn't a fairy tale story because I don't live my life in fantasies every single day. Yet i know i can have my own happy endings, i will find my prince, it doesn't really matter if i get to live in a castle or a cottage as long as my crib is filled with love and hope. Those were just the things I think that will make me happy.

I cry, someone out there wishing me badluck but a lot of my friends are sharing all the luck they can get with me the same way i do with them, i once kisssed a frog but i turned into a frog instead of him turning into my Prince,i got lost not just in the woods but in the jungle(and still getting lost) and my adventures are more fun than what Cinderella and the rest of the princesses have. I guess i am no VIP when it comes to
facing trials in life!

See it's just a twist of fate....and in reality all "happy endings" takes a lot of effort...and even that effort will not be enough to make some people live with it and be contented. Life have a very tricky way of playing games with us! I guess you'll know you won the game if one found whatever it is that will make that person happy and decided to live with it happily ever after...

You think you found your happiness?

Captain Who?!?!

Sino nga ba si Kapitan Sino?

Kapitan ano??!!

Mali! Kapitan Sino!!

Oh eh sino nga si Kapitan Watever?!?!

...hindi siya isang malaking joke,pero ang buhay niya parang isang malaking joke lang ang lahat. Siya ang bida na fictional character sa pang-7 libro ni bob Ong, na tulad ng buhay mo at buhay ko, posibleng wala ring happy ending. Posibleng meron, but one thing is for sure, tulad ng buhay niya, malamang din sa mga oras na to, jino-joke ka lang ng fate mo.

Oh eh sino nga si Kapitan Chorva???

Naintriga ako nung sabihin sa'kin ng pamangkin ko ang bagong book na toh. It's about a super hero na may usual discovery ng super power ability and the story goes on. So what makes it unsual compared sa biography ni Superman, Batman, Spiderman at Bioman??
Si Kapitan Sino, may side-kick na walang kwenta pero the best. The besk kasi simple lang sing tao; malakas mang-asar, mahilig makipag phone-pal,nagsasabi lagi ng totoo kahit nakakayamot na, at sumusuporta sa kaibigan hanggang kulungan!
Ang leading lady ni Kapitan Sino, hindi yung super sexy at damsel in distress ang drama, d tulad ng mga ibang leading lady ng mga super hero jan. Siguro ang masaklap din dun, hindi man lang nia na-kiss yung girl nia kahit sa cheeks man lang!
Hindi ulila sa magulang si Kapitan Sino, hindi inabuso ng kamag-anak, hindi sumikat kahit iligtas pa niya ang buong Pelaez, at siya lang ang super hero na ibinintang ang pagkamatay ng kapitbahay dahil sa lung cancer.
Mukha siyang tanga sa costume niya pero ok lang.
Feeling ko wala siang abs, hindi siya drop dead gorgeous kasi nga isa siyang malaking tanga sa costume/disguise niya! Pero ok lang sa kanya!! cute noh?!
Masasabi kong makulet siya, mabait ng kaibigan, masipag, mahal ang trabaho niya, mapagmahal at mabait na anak, at higit sa lahatresposableng mamamayan! reactive masyado...OA minsan, pero nagampanan niya ang papel niya sa lipunan ayon sa kanyang kakayahan.

EH SINO NGA SI KAPITAN SINO?!?!

Siya ay pwedeng ikaw, ako o yung mukhang loser/tanga/nerd/sa-friendster-lang-may-friends na katabi mo! Sinasalamin niya ang mga twenty somthing na tao na hinaharap ang quarterlife crisis, teenager na feeling niya kaya niyang gawin ang lahat, isang idealist na akala niya mababago niya ang mundo; nalulungkot, tumatawa, naiinlove, nagiging masaya, nadidisappoint, kwela, frustrated, makata, nasasaktan at ang hangad lang ay kabutihan para sa mga taong-bayan.
Tulad natin, si Kapitan Sino ay may love-hate relationship sa life; iisa lang ang kakahantungan...super hero siya hindi immortal.


Ganyan ang pagkakakilala ko kay Kapitan Sino...

La Mode

One of the changes i'm looking forward this year is my ultimate make-over!

Through these years i keep on sticking to my (oh so beloved) chucks, jeans ans shirt outfit., and now, i just figured out that i have to explore more when it comes to fashin and be a lil' adventurous when it comes to dressing up. Well, it doesn't really mean i have to wear something really wacky outfit, i just have to get used in wearing dresses, corporate attires and high heeled shoes that will somehow bring out the sassy yet sofisticated (naks!) part of me at the same time feeling comfortable on what i'm wearing.

I know this is going to be something and i'm pretty excited about it. I really don't care right now what some people will say about the changes i'll make for myself, but i have to listen though and somehow evaluate myself too...maybe what i'm wearing for the day might be tooo flashy or something.hehehe

I know this is the time i'll find Cosmopolitan and Elle mag will be really a big help for me!Ü

A week after...

It's been a week since we all gave tears and said goodbyes in daddy-lolo's burial.

Yes...it's our final goodbye to him and so many, i miss you, i love you and multitudes of thank yous' where he can no longer hear. It's heartbreaking that one have to leave before people realize his value and say the words we're all afraid or missed to say.

It may be too late but at the end, we all get to have the chance to see him with our Father and finally not just say how much he's loved but give him hugs and kisses we could've given to him while he's with us.

Continuous prayer for our love one....

Death, tears and home made cookies

Last week was the tragic moment for our family when my daddy-lolo finally gave up and left us. He fought the battle and suffered enough to be forgiven from all his shortcomings and mistakes he have caused us, whether he mean it or not.
It's something i can't accept after making a deal with him that he can make it, that we will fight together and amidst my busy schedule, still see to it he's being taken care of. When he had his last breath, something just stabbed me in my chest, made me still and quiet...it sucks because it's a feeling i've been avoiding for a long time...sadness and tears. Another man in my life left again....

It's a struggle for me to work but it's more painful for me to just stay home and grieve about everything. I tried to keep myself busy and somehow it's a placebo from all the things i'm keeping myself from. Friends and officemates shared their hugs and some even tried their best to make me laugh...wich i believe a job well done. Yet there are moments i see myself staring at nowhere, thinking of the things i should've done and what are the things we had further done to save his valuable life. Now..everything is too late...he left with tears in his eyes.

Days had pass and i realized that they are right, I should be more happy for him because he's back in our Creator's arms. He no longer have to suffer from death-defying suction, no more needles on his hands, free from diapers and oxygen tank will no longer make him breath easier because wherever he is right now, i bet the air there is more fresher.

Relatives and friends gather on his wake to tell more stories about him. Rumors goes around among the family, different versions of one single event, cries from my dadi-lolo's wife, kids and sisters and a moment for us to see our long lost relatives. From tears to smiles, and i know he'll be delighted when he see all of us gathering and holding each other's hands as we recall all the funny and nice things (and even those not so nice), and even his ka-pilyohan.

Acceptance makes everything easier for us. Trust, that right now his soul is at peace and he's life is much better for him, and a bag of home made cookies to complete it all!

I got this from Drei..

I am the ocean -- that never gets tired of coming back to the shore, that is you..
I am the voice you don't hear -- that continues to believe and fight for you..
I am a soul forgotten -- that weeps for every moment spent without you..
I am the star -- that chooses to shine only for you..
I am the song you don't listen with the ear of your heart..
I am the air -- that you unconsciously breath..
I am the blanket -- that covers you, protects you from this cold life..
I am the cigarette stick -- that you refuse to have,...
I am the phone -- that waits to hear your voice...
I am the rain -- that continues to fall for you....