Dear ME,
I heard that you feel really low lately and you were pulling yourself down too much. I know it hurts when you know that no one around you will like you for who you are, but seriously, you don’t need to change yourself for someone to like you. You don’t have to see yourself as someone as ugly as an ogre.
My dear, stop searching and waiting for the prince to save you from despair and for a happy ending; that I guess does not exist and you know that yourself. You are the one who will make your own happy ending, with or without someone to give you love’s promises.
I think you should also stop thinking no one will see your worth, simply because you don’t believe that you’re beautiful, as what others think of you. I know deep inside you, you are pretty. You just need to accept that, so people will see you, the way you want them to.
I guess what you really need to do is start to have real activities that will enhance your talent (I know you have one! C’mon!!). Smoke & drink less; sleep well; do anything that will make you feel better.
Stop feeling bad…stop pretending you’re ok. Just move on with life the way you should and be more productive! Ü
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
A lesson from a teenager
I've read Diary of A young Girl - Anne Frank again and it never fail to inspire me.
It reminds me of my teenage years and 9years after, i suddenly realized that I've done so many disappointing stuff and that made me feel ashame of my self. If only I can go back in time or probably talk to the old me again, the only word i may utter is "sorry".
I would apologize for letting the adventurous me turned to a lazy lass. I would apologize for being selfish. I'll apologize for being compulsive from time to time and for being careless when it comes to handling my earning. Most of all, I'll be sorry for letting my dreams die a tragic death.
I can't complain, I have no right to complain. I can't just sit in one dark corner of a room and be and feel sorry for the rest of my life. Lesson is learned. I guess it's not to late for me to do what my heart desires.
True that i can't really turn back time & what I can do now is use all the things I've learned to something beneficial, not just to myself and for my family as well. The best I can do is move on. Live & Learn. Have fun. Enjoy every single thing that God provides me.
It reminds me of my teenage years and 9years after, i suddenly realized that I've done so many disappointing stuff and that made me feel ashame of my self. If only I can go back in time or probably talk to the old me again, the only word i may utter is "sorry".
I would apologize for letting the adventurous me turned to a lazy lass. I would apologize for being selfish. I'll apologize for being compulsive from time to time and for being careless when it comes to handling my earning. Most of all, I'll be sorry for letting my dreams die a tragic death.
I can't complain, I have no right to complain. I can't just sit in one dark corner of a room and be and feel sorry for the rest of my life. Lesson is learned. I guess it's not to late for me to do what my heart desires.
True that i can't really turn back time & what I can do now is use all the things I've learned to something beneficial, not just to myself and for my family as well. The best I can do is move on. Live & Learn. Have fun. Enjoy every single thing that God provides me.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Lucky Me!! :P
Dear Friends,
I would like you to know that I'm so lucky to have you guys. I'm not really blessed with a good family but you are my lucky charm and helped me have directions in life. You all taught me and keep on teaching me from what's right from wrong and what i love the most about you was you've been honest to me. I thank God everyday for giving me wonderful friends as a gift.
:-)
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Glee = Happy
Since the intense heat made it hard for me to sleep after work, i decided to spend time on watching Glee again.
The first four episodes are fun and if only i don't have work the next day, i'll end up watching season 1 in a day!
Glee reminds me of my high school days, sans the fact that i have to be on a singing club or "choir". I'm not even the dumb-pretty-cheerleader or part of the invisible group of students who are bullied around by mean students. What i realized is all my hopes and dreams are passing me by as i allow myself be stuck on this job.
High school life is where you try to unravel who you really are and what role you want to play on the society. It's the time of my life where I'm fearless; chasing everything and making sacrifices, thinking that it's a way for me to be what i wanted to be. I've always wanted to be a writer...then i learned the ropes of photography and dreamed of one of the best photographer in the country. I also had the opportunity to make short film and badly dreamed of creating my own film or even some music videos. I once had fun staying on a radio station and play music listeners requested for and decided that it's not that bad to be a local radio dj. Yet until now, it all remains a dream.
Some of the things i've learned on Glee are first, don't let age hinder you on reaching your dream; you might be the next big thing on your chosen field. Second: don't let allow people or someone to pull you down; pick yourself up, love who you are and be true. Third: you don't have to ruin someone to prove that you're good. THe most important is: Have fun!
There's more I can do in my life than to earn big bucks and rot. Sometimes i forget that the world is my playground...I just need to have fun from time to time.
The first four episodes are fun and if only i don't have work the next day, i'll end up watching season 1 in a day!
Glee reminds me of my high school days, sans the fact that i have to be on a singing club or "choir". I'm not even the dumb-pretty-cheerleader or part of the invisible group of students who are bullied around by mean students. What i realized is all my hopes and dreams are passing me by as i allow myself be stuck on this job.
High school life is where you try to unravel who you really are and what role you want to play on the society. It's the time of my life where I'm fearless; chasing everything and making sacrifices, thinking that it's a way for me to be what i wanted to be. I've always wanted to be a writer...then i learned the ropes of photography and dreamed of one of the best photographer in the country. I also had the opportunity to make short film and badly dreamed of creating my own film or even some music videos. I once had fun staying on a radio station and play music listeners requested for and decided that it's not that bad to be a local radio dj. Yet until now, it all remains a dream.
Some of the things i've learned on Glee are first, don't let age hinder you on reaching your dream; you might be the next big thing on your chosen field. Second: don't let allow people or someone to pull you down; pick yourself up, love who you are and be true. Third: you don't have to ruin someone to prove that you're good. THe most important is: Have fun!
There's more I can do in my life than to earn big bucks and rot. Sometimes i forget that the world is my playground...I just need to have fun from time to time.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Wheatgrass aftermath..
I'm not really a diet fab, but when my friend offered me this "wheatgrass diet", i just went to "ok-imma-give-it-a-try" mindset. When i googled the wheatgrass effect, i'm pretty amazed on the benefits of it and the part i like the most is, it will help you remove all the toxins on your body. It supposed to make one's skin look better and make you lose weight.
I don't really aim to lose more weight, yet i still decided to give it a shot.
After a week of drinking wheatgrass...lo and behold! I can't say no to foods and i started craving for Krispy Kreme's honey glazed doughnut, Razon's or Chowking's Halo-halo and frozen yoghurts....and more!!! I can eat 5 big meals a day and i don't mind getting a big tummy as long as i'm satisfied with all the food i eat. I even had my extra serving of rice after 5 years!!!
I only have 13 packs of wheatgrass to consume for 13 days; yet if it won't help slow down my appetite after a week, i might end up drinking it once a week instead of consuming a pack everyday.
I told my friend the major effect of wheatgrass to me and he said maybe it's just on my mind or more of a "psychological effect". Ooooohh!! I hope soo!!!
I don't really aim to lose more weight, yet i still decided to give it a shot.
After a week of drinking wheatgrass...lo and behold! I can't say no to foods and i started craving for Krispy Kreme's honey glazed doughnut, Razon's or Chowking's Halo-halo and frozen yoghurts....and more!!! I can eat 5 big meals a day and i don't mind getting a big tummy as long as i'm satisfied with all the food i eat. I even had my extra serving of rice after 5 years!!!
I only have 13 packs of wheatgrass to consume for 13 days; yet if it won't help slow down my appetite after a week, i might end up drinking it once a week instead of consuming a pack everyday.
I told my friend the major effect of wheatgrass to me and he said maybe it's just on my mind or more of a "psychological effect". Ooooohh!! I hope soo!!!
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Just an update...
I guess the hardest part of someone’s life is restricting themselves from their innermost talent just to earn enough money to satisfy their needs and provide all their wants.
I never felt bad working on a call center for many reasons. This is my first job and on 3yrs of working on the same BPO company, I learned a lot & I know it made me a better, if not the best, person just the way my family expect me to be. I learned the value of respect, teamwork, saving money, saving time, self & work reliance. I’ve seen the effect of having work values & disregarding job ethics. I had and still having a glimpse of how politics works on each of our workstations, it sucks but I guess it has been part of every workers lives. I’ve seen the best and worst part of me when it comes to doing my job…my favorite part? Going to work but not really doing my job!
Amidst all of these, I still feel incomplete. I’m working for money; I think all of us are. Then again, I really envy those earn bucks and seriously love their job. It can be tiring yet they don’t see their job as a very tedious thing in the world.
I think I just need sometime to find myself…..25 years and still lost, what’s the good in that huh?!
I need to set-aside my fears, my endless "what if’s?" and seriously stop thinking that I’m only good on what I’m doing right now. I know there will be hindrances along the way.
One thing I’ve learned though, you’ll know if you’re effectively doing something when people are criticizing you..
I never felt bad working on a call center for many reasons. This is my first job and on 3yrs of working on the same BPO company, I learned a lot & I know it made me a better, if not the best, person just the way my family expect me to be. I learned the value of respect, teamwork, saving money, saving time, self & work reliance. I’ve seen the effect of having work values & disregarding job ethics. I had and still having a glimpse of how politics works on each of our workstations, it sucks but I guess it has been part of every workers lives. I’ve seen the best and worst part of me when it comes to doing my job…my favorite part? Going to work but not really doing my job!
Amidst all of these, I still feel incomplete. I’m working for money; I think all of us are. Then again, I really envy those earn bucks and seriously love their job. It can be tiring yet they don’t see their job as a very tedious thing in the world.
I think I just need sometime to find myself…..25 years and still lost, what’s the good in that huh?!
I need to set-aside my fears, my endless "what if’s?" and seriously stop thinking that I’m only good on what I’m doing right now. I know there will be hindrances along the way.
One thing I’ve learned though, you’ll know if you’re effectively doing something when people are criticizing you..
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
2012
Me and my friends celebrated 3years of our friendship at Greenbelt watching 2012, something that we haven't done before.
2012 is not your typical film or your movie extraordinaire. It's a reality check that everything does come to an end, even to our planet. It shows that till the end, it's still a matter of "survival of the fittest", doesnt matter if you're rich or poor, powerful or weak, kind or mean...it's really human instinct to survive.
It's a movie that shows how human get to realize how valuable life is and how they want to make most if the time doing what they could've done a long time; some were given a chance to do what they long to do, yet some just have to accept that they have done their part, only too late.
It reveals the other face of human civilization, how to really fight to survive, the reason why we need to survive and and learning how not be inhumane even though we are all facing human crisis. It shows the ugly truth that it's human instinct to be greedy to survive and that even a billion euro is not the key to live as some expect it to be.
It shows mother nature's revenge and God giving human a lesson that no one learned from. What actually scary is, it could happen, and sooner or later it will happen. Remember how we all thought that 9/11 bombing only happened in movies?
One continent in the world may survive, all human heritage will be lost, our family will not be able to survive, all religions in the world will be wiped out and racisim will be the last thing to think of...it's like Noah's life in the 20th century! Only the one who believes will make it.
It has been part of our history, and history repeats itself....it may happen today...next year...or at 2012.
2012 is not your typical film or your movie extraordinaire. It's a reality check that everything does come to an end, even to our planet. It shows that till the end, it's still a matter of "survival of the fittest", doesnt matter if you're rich or poor, powerful or weak, kind or mean...it's really human instinct to survive.
It's a movie that shows how human get to realize how valuable life is and how they want to make most if the time doing what they could've done a long time; some were given a chance to do what they long to do, yet some just have to accept that they have done their part, only too late.
It reveals the other face of human civilization, how to really fight to survive, the reason why we need to survive and and learning how not be inhumane even though we are all facing human crisis. It shows the ugly truth that it's human instinct to be greedy to survive and that even a billion euro is not the key to live as some expect it to be.
It shows mother nature's revenge and God giving human a lesson that no one learned from. What actually scary is, it could happen, and sooner or later it will happen. Remember how we all thought that 9/11 bombing only happened in movies?
One continent in the world may survive, all human heritage will be lost, our family will not be able to survive, all religions in the world will be wiped out and racisim will be the last thing to think of...it's like Noah's life in the 20th century! Only the one who believes will make it.
It has been part of our history, and history repeats itself....it may happen today...next year...or at 2012.
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