I miss this!!! I miss blogging!!! it even take some time for me to realize that i'm no longer updating even my daily planner. I'm stuck on providing feedback which I didn't know if they get to read it...well some does and i truely love them for that!!
yes, I've been busy...I've been busy minding other people's call and busy producing evaluations every single day..same old task...just what i expect it to be.
I started to like what i'm doing, seriously, it doesn't bore me to death after 2 months of learning the processes. I'm starting to set my self aside from the cruel, crazy world of operations and fill my mind clutter free from all the metrics to meet that only favors those whom THEY want to pass.
I'm starting to embrace this world that i'm in right now. The world not far from where i turn my back to, the world where being cruel is the rule and the game is pretty fierce.
I think you just have to let go of the past, learn today and move on for a better tomorrow...
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Mushiness on a rainy day...
There were lots of times where we always wanted someone to love us back the way we love them. Truth is it never really happened. We exert effort, waste time waiting for them to take us seriously, and lose our mind only find it’s not worth everything. There were times, we thought we already have what we wanted and badly needed, only to find, that person still can’t fill the empty half of us. We tend to ruin something beautifully created by a happy couple thinking that they already found happiness together and it’s not really that bad to be the third character on their love story. We take the risk of telling someone what we feel, without thinking what the consequences are and sometimes we even lose what we wish to have forever. We risk losing self respect to please the one we love. We forgot the real meaning of "sorry", sacrifice, pride, fidelity, selflessness and love. We take the forbidden risk just to be loved.
What’s the whole point on this? It’s a reality check, that before we long for someone to love us back, we have to love ourselves first. This might be too cliché or so passé but that’s the only time where nothing will be gone to waste. They can hurt us, leave us crying and so helpless, but they can’t take away the things we have learned, even our self respect. When we find love within us, we can easily forgive ourselves from making all the mess we made, we don’t blame others or even ourselves when we failed and we accept that all the risk that we take is all worth it. It would be easy to get back love in return, even if it’s not from someone we thought would love us back. We don’t give way for people to abuse us because we know we deserve better than to suffer and live behind ones lies. No matter how hard they try to pull us down, we have this very courageous way of getting back on our feet, dust ourselves off and move on and take the risk to love again with all the lessons we learned on our side. We get sad but we don’t get depressed, simply because we know we’re better of than hiding inside a dark room and live in misery. That’s when we realize how wonderful life is and how blessed we are with having our family to give us unconditional love and friends who’s always there to get us back to reality and never fail to make our lives full of fun.
We all deserve to have someone we love and will love us back but we don’t live in a life full of fantasy. One may be lucky enough to find their other half, but it’s not pure luck at all, they found their true one love because they learned to appreciate themselves first. We have to start with ourselves and that’s the only risk where we can surely win.
What’s the whole point on this? It’s a reality check, that before we long for someone to love us back, we have to love ourselves first. This might be too cliché or so passé but that’s the only time where nothing will be gone to waste. They can hurt us, leave us crying and so helpless, but they can’t take away the things we have learned, even our self respect. When we find love within us, we can easily forgive ourselves from making all the mess we made, we don’t blame others or even ourselves when we failed and we accept that all the risk that we take is all worth it. It would be easy to get back love in return, even if it’s not from someone we thought would love us back. We don’t give way for people to abuse us because we know we deserve better than to suffer and live behind ones lies. No matter how hard they try to pull us down, we have this very courageous way of getting back on our feet, dust ourselves off and move on and take the risk to love again with all the lessons we learned on our side. We get sad but we don’t get depressed, simply because we know we’re better of than hiding inside a dark room and live in misery. That’s when we realize how wonderful life is and how blessed we are with having our family to give us unconditional love and friends who’s always there to get us back to reality and never fail to make our lives full of fun.
We all deserve to have someone we love and will love us back but we don’t live in a life full of fantasy. One may be lucky enough to find their other half, but it’s not pure luck at all, they found their true one love because they learned to appreciate themselves first. We have to start with ourselves and that’s the only risk where we can surely win.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
LSS
*An old song just struck me and made me think of some things i know i should not even waste a second thinking of.
Just My Imagination
Verse 1- Gwyneth Paltrow
Each day through my windowI watch him as he passes by
I say to myselfI'm so lucky he's so fly
To have a boy like himis truly a dream come true
Out of all the girlies in the world he belongs to you
Chorus
But it was just my imagination
Runnin away with me
tell you it was just my imagination
running away with me
Verse 2-Babyface
Soon we'll be married
And raise a family (oh yea..)
Have a cozy little crib in the countrywith two children maybe three
I tell you I....can raise your lies down baby
It couldn't be a dreamcause too real it all seems
oooohhhh........
Chorus
But it was just my imagination (once again yea)
Runnin away with me (running away with me)
tell you it was just my imagination running away with me (away with me yea)
Verse 3-Gwyneth Paltrow and Babyface
Everynight on my knees
I pray Dear lord hear my plea yea
Don't ever let another take his love from me
Or I will surely die
Heavenly (heavenly) when your arms unfold me
I hear the tender upsity
But in reality
He doesn't even know me
Chorus
But it was just my imagination (ohh, so fly look out my window)
Runnin away with me (It's running away with me baby)
Just my imagination (runnin away)
running away with me (my baby, my sugar, my sweetie, look at my baby)
Just my imagination (ohh, soo fly look out my window)
Runnin away with me (It's runnin away with me)
Just my imagination (yeeaaaa)
running away with me (my baby, my sugar, my sweetie, look at my baby)
Just my imagination (ohh, soo fly look out my window)
Runnin away with me (It's runnin away with me)
Just my imagination (yeeaaaa)
Just My Imagination
Verse 1- Gwyneth Paltrow
Each day through my windowI watch him as he passes by
I say to myselfI'm so lucky he's so fly
To have a boy like himis truly a dream come true
Out of all the girlies in the world he belongs to you
Chorus
But it was just my imagination
Runnin away with me
tell you it was just my imagination
running away with me
Verse 2-Babyface
Soon we'll be married
And raise a family (oh yea..)
Have a cozy little crib in the countrywith two children maybe three
I tell you I....can raise your lies down baby
It couldn't be a dreamcause too real it all seems
oooohhhh........
Chorus
But it was just my imagination (once again yea)
Runnin away with me (running away with me)
tell you it was just my imagination running away with me (away with me yea)
Verse 3-Gwyneth Paltrow and Babyface
Everynight on my knees
I pray Dear lord hear my plea yea
Don't ever let another take his love from me
Or I will surely die
Heavenly (heavenly) when your arms unfold me
I hear the tender upsity
But in reality
He doesn't even know me
Chorus
But it was just my imagination (ohh, so fly look out my window)
Runnin away with me (It's running away with me baby)
Just my imagination (runnin away)
running away with me (my baby, my sugar, my sweetie, look at my baby)
Just my imagination (ohh, soo fly look out my window)
Runnin away with me (It's runnin away with me)
Just my imagination (yeeaaaa)
running away with me (my baby, my sugar, my sweetie, look at my baby)
Just my imagination (ohh, soo fly look out my window)
Runnin away with me (It's runnin away with me)
Just my imagination (yeeaaaa)
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Moving forward, without looking back...
Things happened for a reason….so passé, yet it’s turning out to be a universal truth.
It’s not everyday I get to make some effort to be a little closer to someone I really like. Something’s always holding me back whenever I plan to do so. It is possible that I’m lacking some courage, guts or perhaps confidence, yet whatever it is, I know it’s not going to turn into something I carefully plan about.
He is not that ideal, but he’s the one who made my heart consistently beat really fast…after a gazillion years!! He’s not great looking, yet he looks perfect on his rusty jeans on, rock start printed shirt, rasta looking bonnet, armed with the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen…..after a gazillion years again! He have this ultimate power leaving me speechless every time he pass by or simply glance at my direction --- NOW I’M BEING MUSHY!!!! See he got me speechless and mushy at the same time....it’s so impossible for me to be like that, but he made it possible.
I never realized how important the day we became acquaintance until I understand what all this mushiness I’m going through is. Now, we’re just one perfect strangers; nothing left but the memories where he always smile back at me.
I don’t know what I’ve done or probably my stupid mouth did it again that’s why things turned this way. It may be something stupid that I have had done that will always remind him every time he see me. Whatever it is, It’s me. It took me time to accept it. It crashes my ability to like who I am. My friend may be right, I better blindfold myself whenever I’m going to face a mirror, because what all I’m going to see is one unpleasing and very disappointing lass.
It made me feel sad for a few hours yet I realized one thing, this may sound stupid, but all this didn’t really break my heart, it was all replaced by irreplaceable disappointments. I’m more disappointed at him than I am to myself. There are several things he has done that melt my mushiness and simply throw at the trash. All that’s left of me are series of "why" questions, unfathomable disenchantments and the courage to move on, not taking a fleeting looks at his direction.
It’s not everyday I get to make some effort to be a little closer to someone I really like. Something’s always holding me back whenever I plan to do so. It is possible that I’m lacking some courage, guts or perhaps confidence, yet whatever it is, I know it’s not going to turn into something I carefully plan about.
He is not that ideal, but he’s the one who made my heart consistently beat really fast…after a gazillion years!! He’s not great looking, yet he looks perfect on his rusty jeans on, rock start printed shirt, rasta looking bonnet, armed with the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen…..after a gazillion years again! He have this ultimate power leaving me speechless every time he pass by or simply glance at my direction --- NOW I’M BEING MUSHY!!!! See he got me speechless and mushy at the same time....it’s so impossible for me to be like that, but he made it possible.
I never realized how important the day we became acquaintance until I understand what all this mushiness I’m going through is. Now, we’re just one perfect strangers; nothing left but the memories where he always smile back at me.
I don’t know what I’ve done or probably my stupid mouth did it again that’s why things turned this way. It may be something stupid that I have had done that will always remind him every time he see me. Whatever it is, It’s me. It took me time to accept it. It crashes my ability to like who I am. My friend may be right, I better blindfold myself whenever I’m going to face a mirror, because what all I’m going to see is one unpleasing and very disappointing lass.
It made me feel sad for a few hours yet I realized one thing, this may sound stupid, but all this didn’t really break my heart, it was all replaced by irreplaceable disappointments. I’m more disappointed at him than I am to myself. There are several things he has done that melt my mushiness and simply throw at the trash. All that’s left of me are series of "why" questions, unfathomable disenchantments and the courage to move on, not taking a fleeting looks at his direction.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Stream to scream??
It was saturday morning that i have to go to the office to meet my agents for a huddle when i heard a shocking and interesting news --- Stream Global contact center merge with Etelecare GS.
I guess I was the one who's updated instead of me updating agents on what to do with their calls.
I watched the agents' reactions when their Team Leader was carefully breaking the the news and seems like preparing himself for more violent reactions, but lo and behold, all they did was give a sigh of disappointment, grin and most of them have no reactions at all!
In general most of the agents around me are worried. There are so many "what if" questions going around and a very complex "what-will-happend-to-us?" look in the face. It's the same case here on the support department. Numerous rumors are going around and it is somehow making us think of ourselves and for some, their growth in this industry.
Personally, I am disappointed. The fact that Etelecare can no longer stand on its own means something really big. I was once not that proud working on a BPO industry not until i've experience the Etelecare culture and their drive to make a mark world wide. I must admit that right now i'm not that fully happy with my work, what more now that a lot of changes are going on and it's getting worst than i can think of. I'm not saying that Stream is a bad company or anything like that, I don't know anything about them so I can't really say anything good or bad about them. What I care for (for whatever reason) is the company i'm in right now.
Will they increase our pay? Is that one of the reason why we'll no longer have our PA? Does that mean that new hires get to have more pay thatn those whose working here like the entire of their lives? Where have all our good and great boss gone? Why most of them left us? Is it that worst that you need to consider other company and leave us hanging? Will it be more hard for us to get promoted? What's the next step??
All i know...we just have to expect the worst and hope for the best.
I want to blame it on global recession and we are directly affected by that. Yet there's nothing I can do but be thankful because I still have a job to keep.
The only thing all of us have is the hope that Stream will not have a bad effects on Etelecare or vice versa. We hope that nothing really big will be compromised by this decision.
Cross our fingers!Ü
I guess I was the one who's updated instead of me updating agents on what to do with their calls.
I watched the agents' reactions when their Team Leader was carefully breaking the the news and seems like preparing himself for more violent reactions, but lo and behold, all they did was give a sigh of disappointment, grin and most of them have no reactions at all!
In general most of the agents around me are worried. There are so many "what if" questions going around and a very complex "what-will-happend-to-us?" look in the face. It's the same case here on the support department. Numerous rumors are going around and it is somehow making us think of ourselves and for some, their growth in this industry.
Personally, I am disappointed. The fact that Etelecare can no longer stand on its own means something really big. I was once not that proud working on a BPO industry not until i've experience the Etelecare culture and their drive to make a mark world wide. I must admit that right now i'm not that fully happy with my work, what more now that a lot of changes are going on and it's getting worst than i can think of. I'm not saying that Stream is a bad company or anything like that, I don't know anything about them so I can't really say anything good or bad about them. What I care for (for whatever reason) is the company i'm in right now.
Will they increase our pay? Is that one of the reason why we'll no longer have our PA? Does that mean that new hires get to have more pay thatn those whose working here like the entire of their lives? Where have all our good and great boss gone? Why most of them left us? Is it that worst that you need to consider other company and leave us hanging? Will it be more hard for us to get promoted? What's the next step??
All i know...we just have to expect the worst and hope for the best.
I want to blame it on global recession and we are directly affected by that. Yet there's nothing I can do but be thankful because I still have a job to keep.
The only thing all of us have is the hope that Stream will not have a bad effects on Etelecare or vice versa. We hope that nothing really big will be compromised by this decision.
Cross our fingers!Ü
Friday, August 7, 2009
Where have all my ideas gone?
It’s been almost a month since I get to put into words all the thoughts and ideas that successfully intervene in my life and I think there’s no one to blame but my great ways in procrastinating.
It’s the culprit, the robber, the one I should put all the blames on.
I procrastinate that’s why I don’t get to love my job and didn’t get to find a career.
I procrastinate that’s why I’m still single.
I procrastinate that’s why I don’t really get to appreciate every single time I have.
I procrastinate as an alternative way for me if I can’t stop from what I’m doing to write down what I have in mind and heart.
Above all, I blame myself for doing it. Or maybe I should blame myself for not doing something about it. Procrastinating is eating my senses. I allow that to happen so I’m suffering the consequences. It’s me who can’t be brave enough to make a step forward and take the risk to defeat procrastinating. I let it take control MY steering wheel.
Time was wasted and there’s nothing I can do to get back on something that’s lost. I think the best thing to do is, oh well, as much as possible, don’t allow procrastinating to take over me. How? I don’t know. I think I should start doing what matters most – putting my thoughts into words, WRITE! I will try my best not to drag my feet when something came up and will not be hesitant to take time on putting into writing whatever it is that will just hit me. Writing is the only thing I get to do where I put my heart in and I know, It’s unfair for myself if I will take it for granted.
It’s the culprit, the robber, the one I should put all the blames on.
I procrastinate that’s why I don’t get to love my job and didn’t get to find a career.
I procrastinate that’s why I’m still single.
I procrastinate that’s why I don’t really get to appreciate every single time I have.
I procrastinate as an alternative way for me if I can’t stop from what I’m doing to write down what I have in mind and heart.
Above all, I blame myself for doing it. Or maybe I should blame myself for not doing something about it. Procrastinating is eating my senses. I allow that to happen so I’m suffering the consequences. It’s me who can’t be brave enough to make a step forward and take the risk to defeat procrastinating. I let it take control MY steering wheel.
Time was wasted and there’s nothing I can do to get back on something that’s lost. I think the best thing to do is, oh well, as much as possible, don’t allow procrastinating to take over me. How? I don’t know. I think I should start doing what matters most – putting my thoughts into words, WRITE! I will try my best not to drag my feet when something came up and will not be hesitant to take time on putting into writing whatever it is that will just hit me. Writing is the only thing I get to do where I put my heart in and I know, It’s unfair for myself if I will take it for granted.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Dreamer's list
Changes took place and it shook my comfort zone.
This is just one of those boring days i have to face, for me to earn a little cash and must admit, i know that it will take me some time to cope with the situation. Since killing time has been my hobby for the past few days, there's a lot of things going on my mind. Bad and good but never naughty..sweet and sometimes that i have to snap back to reality and face the real deal.
I just came out with the list i usually think of and questions in my mind i try to answer on my own.
1. What would I be like if I'm working on an advertising firm?
2. Me working on a photoshoot as a photographer on a popular magazine...like nat geo..hehehe
3. I'm part of a band..playing drums or lead guitar.
4. What if me and "shaider" are together...and his wife find out about it?!?!
5. I'm driving my own customized Eclipse.
6. Directing my own Indie Film.
7. Someone singing "Hard to Believe" (Eheads) for me.
8. Me singing "I Miss You" (incubus) to someone.
9. I'm undergoing to a MAJOR make-over.
10. Designing my own house.
11. If I am to manage a business what would it be??
12. Kicking one of the boss's ass.
13. Repramand the agent I'm rating
oh well..here are just some on my list....
as much as i want to elaborate more about this, it will take some more time for me to do so. Each of them have thier own story and most of them doesn't have an ending yet. Oh well.. guess day dreaming is something most people do when they are usually stuck on a traffic.Ü
This is just one of those boring days i have to face, for me to earn a little cash and must admit, i know that it will take me some time to cope with the situation. Since killing time has been my hobby for the past few days, there's a lot of things going on my mind. Bad and good but never naughty..sweet and sometimes that i have to snap back to reality and face the real deal.
I just came out with the list i usually think of and questions in my mind i try to answer on my own.
1. What would I be like if I'm working on an advertising firm?
2. Me working on a photoshoot as a photographer on a popular magazine...like nat geo..hehehe
3. I'm part of a band..playing drums or lead guitar.
4. What if me and "shaider" are together...and his wife find out about it?!?!
5. I'm driving my own customized Eclipse.
6. Directing my own Indie Film.
7. Someone singing "Hard to Believe" (Eheads) for me.
8. Me singing "I Miss You" (incubus) to someone.
9. I'm undergoing to a MAJOR make-over.
10. Designing my own house.
11. If I am to manage a business what would it be??
12. Kicking one of the boss's ass.
13. Repramand the agent I'm rating
oh well..here are just some on my list....
as much as i want to elaborate more about this, it will take some more time for me to do so. Each of them have thier own story and most of them doesn't have an ending yet. Oh well.. guess day dreaming is something most people do when they are usually stuck on a traffic.Ü
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